Sunday, January 18, 2009 @2:42 AM
its almost 3.00am ! i only have another 3 more hours t sleep cause i have work and i do not know why i'm still here blogging.
today was fine; just 'oh so fine'. went t deliver oranges and met a security guard. he started shouting at me and using profanities at me. i tolerated him 3 times and he went over my limit and i blew up. i was just thattttt close t releasing all th anger on him. my god i was over th top and he still went on and on and on. i turned back and gave him a piece of my mind and he called th police?lol. he wanted t report t th police because i verbally abused him i was like 'please use my phone t call th police, i'm so scared' after that th driver helped and played th role as a mediator and solved th problem. i sooooo hope th police came.ohwells. bad day.
i'm beginning t regain my old self; someone that i don't wna see again. i seem t lose my cool very easily especially th past few weeks. which is not good in a wee bit? i do not know what has happened t me. i think i'm losing it and sooner or later its gna go out of hand. i dont wan th old brian but neither do i wan th brian now. either it's an emocore brian or an angry brian. but i wan neither of them. who am i or who i am? life is just full of contradictions. one moment people can be th best of friends; and another moment become th worst of enemies. now i'm back t th question of do we live to die; or rather die to live? so many thoughts so little to type. ARGHHHH. i'm really on th verge of going berserk.
i talk t me; but you can't hear th pain i feel.aights i shall stop here today. i shall go fr a night jog and then shower and head t bed.
truth is relative; not absolute&&
<3jolynn
