Thursday, July 26, 2007 @7:38 PM
Hellos all.
so today's another fucked up day.cuz once again because of changi general hospital's 'good' service.my mother and i wen t th hospital today at 1130 t visit my grandfather.first thing wen we entered th ward th receptionist said tht its nt visiting hours so leave.i was like wtf bt nvm.den wen we walked t my grandfather's bed we found him nt there.so we wen t asked th nurse whr did my grandfather go to.den she was oh he wen fr operation oredy in th morning.i was fucking pissed off because th fucked up hospital said tht they wuld inform my family if my grandpa was going fr th op.i didnt blow up there as i was in th ward n didnt wan t disturb other patients.so we asked th nurse wen he wuld be bak den she told us tht there wuld nt be a confirmed time tht he wuld be bak.
so aft tht we left our contact details n wen down t th canteen t eat lunch.aft lunch we waited by my grandfather's bedside.we waited bt both my mother and i were too tired so we fell asleep.den abt an hr later i was woken up by my sister.she told us to go t th SICU.den i asked her whether my grandfather did th op oredy or nt her reply was no.she den told me tht she had to make a fuss before th hospital staff actually started finding where my grandfather was.den i was like wad in th fucking world is th fucking hospital doing.so we wen t th SICU t see my grandfather.he was so weak.he wanted t eat bt couldnt,he wanted t drink bt oso culdnt drink.i was fucking angry n sad.i wanted t blast at any of th hospital staff at tht moment den my brotherinlaw n sis said tht i shud do it aft my grandfather is discharged.
so i held my anger i kindly asked tht whr i can go find a person in charge t talk to.because i feel tht it is fucking fucking irresponsible to let at old man juz last minute inform him tht he has t go fr an op n his family members nt being there.i culd see my grandfather was very scared of anything tht th doctors do to him.let alone a fucking operation.i fucking wanted t blow up at tht time.
so i controlled my anger n wen t see my grandpa wen he was shifted to another ward..he was so weak,tired,hungry and thirsty.i very much wanted t go buy food and water fr him bt th fucking nurses said tht we had t wait till th doctors come n giv him a proper diagnosis.so aft like 45mins th fucking doctor finally came.so he gave my grandfather a checkup n found tht he has nt enough blood and had a minor heart attack.i was so fucking pissed at tht time.which old man wuldnt get an heart attack wen he is last minute informed tht he is going fr an op!n plus his family members are nt there i was fucking on th fucking verge of exploding.even wif my family arnd my grandfather wuld still be afraid of injections,changing of equipment etc.n they fucking didnt inform us n let him go fr th op n last minute cancelled it.HOW FUCKING IRRESPONSIBLE !
so aft tht th doctor said tht my grandfather culd eat so my sister n brotherinlaw wen down t buy food n drinks fr him.aft tht i wen outside th ward benches there t sit down as i couldnt bare to look at my grandfather because hes in this current situation.i sat there n there were many many thoughts running through my head at tht time.aft awhile i fell asleep.
wen i woke up i my sister n brotherinlaw came bak fr home oredy cuz they wen t go buy fruits fr my grandfather.den nw another doctor was there.so he told my sis n my brotherinlaw abt my grandpa's current situation.
so aft tht my broinlaw came out n tell us abt my grandpa's situation.he said tht my grandfather because he had an heart attack tis morning he is in high risk of taking th op.he said tht there wuld be more than a 50% chance tht we might LOSE MY GRANDFATHER.n we had th be mentally prepared.i was fuckin devastated. i was fucking confused fucking sad.i dun know wad t do at all.i really didnt noe wad t do.even nw i oso dunno wad t do.im damn frustrated angry confused n sad at th same time now.im very fucking lost nw.fucking fucking lost.some pls help me !
i never wanted t lose tis grandfather of mine.i can nvr find another like him.hes been taking care of me fr th pass 17 yrs.i dun wanna lose him i really really dun wna lose him pls.im willing t trade 10yrs of my life fr one year of his.fuck why must this happen t him n why must he be in such a fucked up hospital wif fucked up service n whr everything is fucked up !FUCK !walan eh im praying hard tht he wuld be fine aft tis week.pls.
alrites i dunno wad t post oredy im fucking lost nw n yeah seeya all.
