Monday, March 26, 2007 @10:26 PM
okays i cant bloody hell login t blogger on my com=(
havent really been blogging cause goddamned blogger cant post on my comp!
its like wah so many things happening th past few wks.
i stil cant get over th fact tht one of my closest fren hv drifted so far apart frm us.i really really regard him as my younger brother.i dun wna see him fuckup his life by joining a gang.so many things tht i wan t say t him bt wen i cal him he nvr picks up.i really wan t see th old him n dun wna see th new him.seeing his frenster profile etc.posting abt his so-called brothers.it really hurt me.nvm if he nvr regarded me as an older brother or wad.its juz tht i cant see why is tis major change in him.it seems like i dont noe him anymore.its really really hurting.wad he does n everything.th was a time i fell out wif him bt casey nvr ever did giv up on him.den wen he started t come bak t us i really felt really happy.n yeah i wuld acc his flaws fr no one is perfect.his lvl of maturity is like zero bt nvm i wont mind helping him all th time bt does he even wan our help?i really do nt wan tis guy juz t go down th drain like tht.yes all th talking ive done has gone t waste bt as long as he goes bak t th correct path i wont mind sacrificing my time t talk t him over th phone fr hours t help him solve his problems.i wont even mind goin t his hse at upp bukit timah which is fucking far fr me t go talk t him.bt th least i culd expect frm him is just t fucking giv up n go th fucking wrong way.forgetting abt me is okay.bt hw bout casey?his primary school gd fren?i cant even compare t casey in his forgiving heart.casey has never ever gave up on tis fucker bt i did a few times.casey has also been hurt by wad th parents say abt him n us.its really hurting fr tht t come out frm his parents.like we're gna lead him t gangsterism etc.im like wtf.haiz im at a total lost of wad t do so i really gotta do some soul searching whether ive really failed as a fren t help him.PLEASE I WANNA SEE TH OLD KACHUA!
another fucking irritating fucker.ermmm gotta say its jj.he tinks hes so fucking matured wif his fucking immatured jokes n yeah.nt everybody can take his fucking nonsense n cb he tinks hes damn funny.he tink he can correct ppl wen he himself is so fucking immatured doing stupid stuff.hahah yeah every1 wuld commit mistakes bt nt tht kind of fucking stupid mistakes he make.he can talk all th fucking shit in th world bt hahah ppl can see his maturity lvl.n he n his fucking act hokkien peng lanjiao.fucking wan t be a fucking ah beng dun even noe hw t speak hokkien.simi lanjiao peng?kani na chiu cheng kia.if hes gna let his fucking cb cui of his run wild den yeah he wuld learn it th hard way someday la.im nt saying im a very likable person bt hahaha he himself shud fucking do some soul-searching on wad kind of fucked up person is he.wad brother brother?wad th fuck does he noe abt brother?hahahah.i dun wna say anymore la hes nt really one of my closest frens bt its juz tht i cant take his bullshit anymore.
okays finally im gna address th topic on myself.hai.fuck feel tht im juz a useless fucker.nvr made my family proud of me before.all th hopes tht were put on me were gone t waste.seriously in these past four yrs in my secondary school life ive nvr really done anything.hardly i studied n yeah.th only thing i did good was to go down my mother's stall t help out n thts all.n maybe a few part time jobs ive taken up.theres one point in my life i really wanted t join a gang t make quick cash n yeah.bt i noe i shud walk tht way cause i'll definitely hv no future once i get caught.i noe th only way i can repay them is t get good results fr my o lvls.its gna be a hard thing t do bt im goin t try my best.as i dun wna let my family n especially my mother down anymore.i really hate my father i really hate him.th hatred between him n i can never be measured.theres so many dissappointing things tht he had done t tis famly of mine.i really wna juz fuck him outta th family.th only reason why im stil calling him dad his because he gives me money.its fucking hurting t hear wad th fuck he had done in th past.i do nt wna do anything more man.im only standing on one thin line of exploding at him.juz one little small thing tht he do hurt my mother ima kill him.i cant understand y th fuck is he being manupilated by his sister.tht fucked up sister of his is th fucking mastermind behind everything tht has gone wrong in my family.in front of me shes like oh so nice den at th bak of me she starts fucking talking cock.i wanted t whack her bt im juz gna fall into her trap if i juz do tht.so yeah i believe wad goes arnd comes arnd.its damn pissing.i cant understand la hes a fucking grownup bt he cant think fr his fucking family or even fr his fucking self.i really dunno y i hv such a fucked up father.i cant blame anyone bt i swear im gna work my hardest t provide my mom n my family a better life!
another guy tht keeps me worried is my grandfather.tht useless fucking son of his keeps coming bak t ask frm my grandfather money.its like very fucking pissing i tried addressing t my grandfather abt tis topic bt he juz wont listen.im so fucking afraid tht fucker might con my grandfather or might even hurt him.he has oredy done it once n i do not wan history t repeat again.i swear if i ever see tht fucker again im gna hammer th fuck outta him n i make sure he wont ever get into contact wif my grandfather ever again!so SIM CHEE KIANG u better fucking watch out cause im coming fr u!
nxt abt my school.ahhhh fucking hell samuel eio has been giving me fucking bullshit cb cunt.fucker stil dun wna tak elvin n i outta th dc shit.fucking cb lang.ahhh fucking hell dun wna say anymore la.n fr rugby YAY i played my first tournament match against acsi.woah i swear they played hell dirty bt hahah they are nt th only ones who noes hw t play dirty=p hahah so played fr like 10-15 mins was quite fun.n yeah.
so ytd went town aft training wen t play a game of dota.so yeah me casey jia saac jotham sheng jj dhar leo n ven was at vs.slack jack fr awhile den we were at vs singing songs!hahah.den aft tht wen t centrepoint t look fr earpiece fr ven den end up cant find den we go s-11 makan.den aft th casey jia saac n i wen t bali hse t drink.den we poured out all th troubles we were facing.we were talking abt karma n yeah.WAD GOES ARND COMES ARND.hahah indeed tht statement is so fucking true.hahah.it was a short time bt it was good.felt btr n yeah.we sorta got closer aft tht.we didnt really hv alotta time t talk so yeah we decided t continue it at isaac's hse nxt friday n yeah we can talk cock frm night t morning.cuz th session at bali hse we had was far too short.so aft tht we wen seperate ways isaac n jia went home casey stayed over my hse.hahah he was watching some funny videos n yeah we wanted t block-shop bt phaaaap i waited fr him sooo long i cant tank den i went t slp.
today casey woke up had t chiong home cause his father scolded him so yeah.aftr tht wanted t go kovan bt was too late so stayed at home th whole day.studied fr like 2 hrs n yeah.so yeah nw im here blogging fucking bored.
so i tink i shall stop here today.got alotta more things t say bt yeah im quite bored n yeah theres quite alotta thoughts running thru my head nw.
so ciaoboats!
-briann=))
Wednesday, March 07, 2007 @12:29 PM
HELLOS!!finally aft a long long shithead time.bamm i am posting!hahah bt at isaac's hse.
well past few wks of school had been quite boring bt hahahah its ok.
certain things happened made me feel damn fucked up.like my grandfather as usual giving th useless son of his money.omg its like aiyah i oso dunno wad t say la.tis fucker last time fucking whacked my grandfather cuz he wanted money t take drugs.wtf la.i dunno wad t say la.tis grandfather treats me really really well.bt sometimes his thinking is really OFF.i cant bear t see him like waste his money on a useless fucker like his son.i rather he spend his money of 4d or wadever fuckshit.FUCK!aiyah wad t do life's juz like tht.
so basically wad ive been doin th past month is like wow boring.studying,rugby,studying laning n yeah.bt at least sometimes wen i spend time wif my frens its quite nice.enjoyable n yeah.
coming t th topic on frens.recently just found out tht one very fucking close fren of mine which i regard as a younger brother has really changed like fuck.n nt only tht he has joined a gang.fucking disappointed in him.its really uncalled fr n wad he said was like yeah he really wanted t join.isit tht fun being a gangster?i expected him t drift frm us again wen he went t yuhua bt i didnt expect tis drastic change within a short month!words cant describe hw disappointed n sad n at th same time hw angry i am.sometimes i blame myself fr nt being stern enough wif him bt den again its nt my failt cause i oredy had tried my fucking BEST t help him.since he wanted t change skul til nw.its like haiz.his parents too.just some fucked up things th school said abt us their viewpoint of us has changed 360degrees. they can like u noe say oh we are th older brothers n we are good ppl wadever fuckshit den aftr tht they think we are th fucking bad influence t his son.fucking hell we didnt even do anything n fucking hell he had turned fr th worst since he changed school t ymca.nw im really at a lost fr words t say.all th trust had been lost.BAM!hai.well i do nt wan t tok abt him anymore.fucking tiring.WHERE'S THE SHAUN CHUA IVE KNOWN?!well i shall stop here nw cause i oso dunno wad t say.so yeah.anws hellos!
ciaoboats!
briann'
