Sunday, January 21, 2007 @3:25 PM
hellos sons n daughters!
havent been blogging in a while cuz hv been quite shag lately.well past two wks hv been quite okay.nth much.
rugby,rugby matches,studying,slacking etc.okays ytd played acsi's b div B team.lost by a try wen we culd hv drawn wif them.oh wells.fucking referee as usual one biased motherfucker.may tht fucker burn.hahah.well aftr th match had some team talk den watched th acsi bdiv A team play against acjc.they were like fucking good bodoh.its like a standard tht we cant reach bt we'll try achieve it.den acjc lost by three tries.it was a nice match n yeah.aftr tht went t a coffeeshop opposite acsi makaned wif whang jieh,daryl,xianwen n both randalls.aftr we makaned it started fucking pouring.den waited n waited n walked in th rain t th bus stop den wen town den slacked.waited fr awhile den casey came wif isaac.den slacked again.aftr tht dotaed.den slacked n slacked den pooled den dotaed den slacked.den pooled den zhaoboated home at arnd 11 plus.reached home bathed den lied down on my bed den wanted t eat supper den was too tired so phaaaaaaaaaaaap fell asleep.
today woke up arnd 12 plus,well its been a long time since ive ever slept tis long.it was quite nice n yeah.so woke up washed up den watched tv.studied fr like 1hr den yeah im here blogging!nth better t do nw cuz studying's actually a fucking boring thing bt hv t do it cuz i dun wna fuck up my o's.okays i dunno wad t post oredy.quite lazy t type.heh.so yeah im gna go bak t studying nw sons!.cyas!
briann'
Thursday, January 04, 2007 @11:42 PM
well well hellos!
mm.its like th second day of skul.hahah cant really believe it im nw a sec5.time really pasts damn fast.its like only yesterday tht i was sec 2.these four yrs hav been quite an interesting four years.got t noe many new ppl n yeah.made alotta new frens n yeah many many things had happened.so yeah lets start.well skul hasnt really changed much,still th same old shit bt wif some new rules n shit.quite a boring day.didnt really do much in skul,during lessons only talking cock,arm-wrestling n stuff yeah.hahah well after skul wen t far east wif th usual grp n yeah helmy came along too.makaned there den saw jon wif his gf.den he was like"ccb u,brian why nvr go training?"i was damn shocked la.hahah den phaaap xw oso kena.aftr awhile wen t meridien played 2 games of dota won 1 lost 1.den aftr tht wen wif jotham t city hall t do something t our ez-link cards as we were being charged adults fares.so after tht we wen t th toilet was waiting fr cubicles den let jotham go in first cuz he needed t release his bowels den yeah was waiting n waiting den finally there was a cubicle den phaap some chaoyang fart look-alike chiong in.i was like wtf la den phaaap scolded him bt didnt whack him cuz if i were t do tht i wuld get a record n yeah shit like tht.n he was like a faggot so yeah didnt really wan t n yeah.n wanted t change t be a better n improved brian tis year.hahah.aftr tht took mrt home den yeah.bathed slacked makaned den talk cock fr awhile den phaaap im here nw blogging!okays fr some unknown reason ive sorta put down th girl i like oredy,bt bt bt i stil like her.hahah dunno why bt yeah.maybe its juz human.hahah.well gna take me some t forget abt her bt yeah i wuld sooner or later.well i've finally put down somethings n yeah sorta come out of tht little world tht i've been living in.nt gna waste anymore time n yeah.
well hopefully th year 2007 wuld be a good year fr me.really wan t turn over a new leaf n yeah start afresh.gna commit myself into studies n rugby n yeah thts all.dun wna waste another year so yeah.know tht ive been fooling arnd th past 4 yrs n yeah its time fr me t wake up n start studying.i noe talk is cheap,its gna be hard fr me bt stil im gna chiong fr it.so yeah i'll keep my blog short today cuz i needa sleep oredy so tk care all!
=))briann'
Wednesday, January 03, 2007 @12:35 AM
hellos!
havent been blogging fr th past two wks.been quite a busy n happening two wks.was also quite tired t blog so yeah.finally found a time nw t blog.
so th yr 2006 has oredy passed.many things had happened in tht yr.arguments/fights wif frens,having t appeal t go bak barker,mom's business screwing up,mom being admitted t th hospital,quarells wif my father n alotta shit.2006 is yr i think tht has made me seen through many things.it oso has made me learn many life lessons n oso noe alot of new ppl.it has also been quite a difficult yr fr my family cuz having t go through bankruptcy of mom,thus causing furniture in th hse t be confiscated by th bank.having alotta quarells n occasions tht i scolded my father n things he done tht has made me angry n sad.many other things oso hav made me break down.
seeing some of my frens nt make it bak t barker was quite a sad thing.on th day of collection of results i tot tht i wuld be one of those tht didnt make th mark fr th n lvl mark bt surprisingly i made it.so yeah on tht day helmy didnt make it n yeah helmy started crying den xw oso den i oso cant tank den cried.was quite sad t see helmy nt making.even though we're nt tht close bt stil yeah i stil cried.so yeah after tht i was occupied cuz i had t manage my mom's stall since she's sick n is in th hospital so i didnt really get t hang out much wif them. fr my family it has really really been a tough year.so tough tht i almost gave up.everything or every1 is like at one point against me n i couldnt take it.
my father was one of th worst,he made me feel like shit n he did alotta things tht has either let th family or my mom or me,his son down.stil bein a fucking bum n dun really take care of th family.complaining or quarelling over small shit making my mom feel like shit thus making everyone else in th family feel th same.fucking walked out on th family n shit like tht.didnt even care fr my mom even wen she was terribly ill n can sleep away.quarelling wif my mom almost every wk,even during my n lvls.all th things tht he had done made me feel damn pressurized.really a damn great dissapointment at him as a father n most importantly as a husband.working wif him at th stall was a total nightmare.he hardly helps n juz laze arnd doing nth.theres was one time tht he made me so pissed tht i walked outta stall n juz wanted t giv up on everything.at tht point of time i really felt hw my mom feel all these yrs.all th fucked up treatment tht he has been giving her.n alotta of other shit he has done t my family.
my grandfather he keeps me damn worried everyday.his fucking useless son keeps coming bak wen we're nt arnd n pester him fr money.everyday i live t wry tht something wil happen t him.be it whether he gets whacked or conned.his one of persons tht dotes on me most n yeah i really dun wan anything t happen t him.its quite sad knowing tht his sense of judgement n somethings are failing n does stupid things.
my mom,fr th past yr shes been through alot.she being a bankrupt was a great blow t her,although she doesnt show it bt i noe deep in her heart she feels damn sad as her pride is high.no doubt most of th time she doesnt understand me n does alotta things tht make me very sad n break down.bt stil she has been putting up all th nonsense tht my father has been giving her all these yrs.shes juz hanging there purely fr me.i feel damn fucked up wen i cant do anything t improve her life or wadsoever.tis mom tht i hv no doubt she may be unreasonable bt shes stil one of th best.wen she was in th hospital,my uncle bought fr her bird's nest.den while she was eating it she said"wah first time can eat bird's nest like tht"it was only one simple sentence,bt it had alotta meaning behind it. wen i heard tht i felt damn useless n sad tht i as her son cant even provide such a simple thing as bird's nest fr her t eat.n wen she said tht there was many things running through my mind.i as her son didnt really do anything much t make her proud of so yeah.my anda n sis,both of them oso hav gone through alot these past few yrs.n especially my sis she has gone through th most.no matter wad i did wrong or wad they wuld stil forgive me.their magnanimous heart they hav n th care n concern they show fr me theres really no way i can repay them.its like so many things they hav done fr me.i do not noe hw t tank them bt im gna try my best n get a good job n like give them a good treatment.nw abt myself n tis yr as a whole.well tis yr has been quite a life-experiencing/learning yr fr me.many things had happened fr me n my family.so many things tht had happened tht even i myself had almost wanted t giv up so many times.bt all these things hav sorta like made me "grow up" n in a sense made me more sensible.well thts th past n yeah 2007's gna be a new yr n hopefully a better year.aight i shall stop here fr today so yeah anws happy new yr t one n all!
=))briann'
