Wednesday, December 06, 2006 @10:14 PM
wed.
so yeah last nite stayed up all nite watch tv,watched champions league n journey t th west.hahah watch til like 6 plus den phaaap cant tank go sleep.wanted t take a short nap bt th short nap was a long sleep.
woke up at like 3 plus,saw a hell lotta missed calls n yeah.so after tht bathed n wen down t my mom's stall t help out.so took a cab reached there n ah chuan da-ge n ah meng da-ge were taking their afternoon naps.after tht leparked abit den did deliveries n yeah.came bak makaned served a few customers den phaaap go home oredy.so yeah came home bathed den leparked den watch tv n yeah nw im here blogging.cuz nth better t do.
clinging on t things tht im nt supposed t its quite stupid.i hope i can really juz forget abt her nw bt thts going t be like almost impossible nw.we're like two worlds apart be it physically or mentally.i stil dunno why im clinging on bt yeah im stil clinging on t it.its kinda stupid n yeah sooner or later im gna come t my senses.so yeah im gna take a step at a time.yeah try n try.its gna be hard bt im gna try n tank it n go through it.so yeah.things between my family hv change slightly fr th better.my mom's no longer angry at me n yeah.so i hope things wuld really improve step by step.i believe bit by bit things wuld improve n yeah we'll hopefully hv a better life.so yeah i juz gna look on n nt look bak anymore.ive thought long n hard these few days.feel tht theres many things ive gotta change abt myself n especially as a family member.sometimes u really cant make it on ure own.n yeah nw ive gotta understand myself better.nw im really trying hard t change myself.although its almost an impossible target bt stil im gna try.im gna try scale targets tht ive nvr tried b4 n yeah try t make th best outta me in tis period of my life.although theres also many other problems ive gotta worry abt bt stil ive gotta face it.im wna come out as th old brian tht every1 used t noe.th happy-go-lucky guy.im noe its gna be a hard thing t do bt stil im gg t try do it.ive many bad points n nt any good points abt myself.gna learn frm my past mistakes n yeah try t improve frm there.im juz going try t change la.i noe saying its easy nt im gna change!soon u'll see th old brian back again guys!so yeah tmr's gna be another brand new day.so im gna look forward t it n yeah.
tk care all.
ciaoboats.-briann'
