Wednesday, December 06, 2006 @12:29 AM
tuesday.
well started th day at like 1 plus,missed th rugby match cuz i overslept.was quite sick last nite so yeah.ermmmm really wanted t go fr th match bt my alarm didnt wake me up.quite fucked up.bt nvm thursday stil got another match so its ok.
so yeah woke up,washed up den yeah watched tv n makaned brunch.leparked til like 3 plus bathed den wen meet xw at mrt so we culd go alex's hse.so yeah on th way there talk cock den xw said go meet greg they all in town first.so yeah wen t PS first t look fr a mouthguard cuz keep getting whacked at th mouth area during training n im afraid my teeth wuld drop.hahah.so yeah walk here walk there den phaaaap cant find so yeah wen dome t meet casey n greg.at dome saw quite a few ppl den stayed there fr awhile den left fr alex's hse.on th way there it was drizzling den phaaaaap heavy rain we reach his hse.so we asked him t open th gate fr us den wen we reached there we ran in.juz as we wen in alex's were getting umbrellas fr us bt too late.hahah we chionged den gt a little wet n yeah.so reached his hse dotaed a few games.quite fun n yeah wen t play a game called "in-between" wif greg,alex n xw n casey was playing dota.fucking hell at first i was like losing 5 bucks den phaaap win bak 20plus.was like damn happy la cuz if i didnt win i oso dunno hw sia..den time fr dinner,den yatty came.so yeah after dinner continued gambling bt tis time blackjack.so yeah won like another den in blackjack den phaaaap played in-between again den phaaap lost 5 den nvm.so yeah wen home like 20 plus richer cuz had t pay alex bak 10.so yeah took a cab back home wif xw.on th way we were toking abt rugby n yeah.reached home like 11plus den bathed den tok cock on th phone fr awhile den nw nth better t do blog lor.theres many things i wna say bt yeah i dunno hw t put it.th girl i like has quite alot of crap going on yeah thts quite fucked up.although noeing all tis shit i stil like sooo very fucking much.its quite fucked up la.i oso dunno hw nw la quite sian la.i noe myself tht i shud juz giv up bt i cant seem t do it.really damn cock la.til nw i stil can say i like her i like her n yeah i stil like her noeing tht i shud stop tis kind of thoughts.wads meant t be meant t be.i juz cant seem t let go of it.quite fucked up la.was doing some soul-searching last nite.n yeah i stil cant really understand myself as a person.i cant even analyse myself properly.damn fucked up n yeah.i find many many flaws on myself n yeah.can accept it n wna change bt i noe i wont change.contraticting bt yes.stil dunno why im stil so fucking hot-tempered like nw.every little small thing i can get juz WOAH phaaap n yeah.its quite fucking stupid.i rather hv my old-self n it wuld make my day a better day.th way i tok t ppl nowadays are oso very sharp.i oso dunno why.i always ask myself 'wad hv i become' bt i cant seem t get th answer.its really quite fucked up la nw.i nw feel quite stupid,helpless,useless n oso hopeless.i really do wna change myself bt i dunno whr t start frm.theres like so many flaws in myself n i really dunno whr t start frm.sian1/2 la.aiyah hope i wuld sort tis out sooner or later la nt its going t be more fucked up as days go by.alrites is time fr me t go nyeah.ciaoboats
-briann.
