Saturday, October 28, 2006 @12:07 AM
DoS
hellos t all reading my blog.hahah.today was a rather sian day.had t wake up early fr flag day.den collect a few coins frm jackie den phaaaap chiong dota.hahah it was quite stupid la jia th way he approached ppl was damn funny.dota was also quite fun.den play play play til 4plus den chiong bak t tanjong pagar t return t fuckshit flag day packet.end up alot of ppl kena NE=no effort.wtf la.ohwells den wen bak t town slack slack den talked wif casey fr awhile den after tht slack slack den wen home.cam n ter came over my hse n yeah yeah dey outside watching tv.
alrites lets get t myself.so yeah ytd my mom saw me smoking n t my surprise she didnt say anithin maybe she knew i was pissed off or wd la.den she told my bro-in-law i fuckin throwed my temper at her.i seriously dunno wad she wants frm me nw.i noe shes my mom n she works fuckin hard t earn money bt stil im nt a superman.she dare say i threw my temper at her.its juz too fuckin retarded.n on th phone she can talk t me as if nth happened.i really dunno wd t do t even expect tht t come out frm my mom.im only hanging on bcuz of her n shes my last pillar of support tht im hanging on.n yeah tht culd come out frm her.i really dunno wd t say oredy.i really really dunno wd t do oredy=((i really feel sad n disappointed tht wad she said could even come out of her mouth.i totally dunno wd t do.even my last pillar of support has fallen wd can i do nw?
isit bcuz im nt worthy enough t be her son or isit bcuz i dont help.i really wna do my mom proud bt i dun really like studyin n yeah.sometimes i feel yeah maybe im juz a usuless bum hanging arnd doin nth.i really dunno why my mom n sis n broinlaw hv such a useless son brother brotherinlaw like me.i really dunno whr t head nw.my mind is really really in a whirl be it fr my family or fr financial.i really dunno wd t do n i feel fuckin useless.haiz haiz wad t do i cant really depend on ppl nw.
so yeah nw i really dunno wd t do nw.dunno wen wil all these problems ever end.wil it end fast or wd.haiz.sian1/2.
seeing a few of my frens retain or havin another chance t retake really makes me envy n scared.i envy them bcuz they can retake bt i cant.i cant even retain!so wad can i do?im really afraid i dont do well n let my mom down i dun tink she can take it maybe she wuld hav a heart attack or wd.omg im really at a lost nw.i stil hv t wait til dec den i noe my results its quite a long n tiring time.hopefully ill make it t sec5 nt i dunno whr i wil end up man.
den it comes t my heart.th person tht i like.i really really do like her alot.i dunno why do i stil like her after all these while i really dunno.nw i dun even hav t proper guts t face her n talk.hahah my god.i dun even dare t ask her cuz th standards of me n her are quite far.n its quite stupid thinking of it cuz its nt really possible between both of us.so yeah im at a lost.maybe ill take some time den yeah maybe forget abt her.
ohwells i shall stop here n write another time
ciaoboats!
