Saturday, October 28, 2006 @12:07 AM
DoS
hellos t all reading my blog.hahah.today was a rather sian day.had t wake up early fr flag day.den collect a few coins frm jackie den phaaaap chiong dota.hahah it was quite stupid la jia th way he approached ppl was damn funny.dota was also quite fun.den play play play til 4plus den chiong bak t tanjong pagar t return t fuckshit flag day packet.end up alot of ppl kena NE=no effort.wtf la.ohwells den wen bak t town slack slack den talked wif casey fr awhile den after tht slack slack den wen home.cam n ter came over my hse n yeah yeah dey outside watching tv.
alrites lets get t myself.so yeah ytd my mom saw me smoking n t my surprise she didnt say anithin maybe she knew i was pissed off or wd la.den she told my bro-in-law i fuckin throwed my temper at her.i seriously dunno wad she wants frm me nw.i noe shes my mom n she works fuckin hard t earn money bt stil im nt a superman.she dare say i threw my temper at her.its juz too fuckin retarded.n on th phone she can talk t me as if nth happened.i really dunno wd t do t even expect tht t come out frm my mom.im only hanging on bcuz of her n shes my last pillar of support tht im hanging on.n yeah tht culd come out frm her.i really dunno wd t say oredy.i really really dunno wd t do oredy=((i really feel sad n disappointed tht wad she said could even come out of her mouth.i totally dunno wd t do.even my last pillar of support has fallen wd can i do nw?
isit bcuz im nt worthy enough t be her son or isit bcuz i dont help.i really wna do my mom proud bt i dun really like studyin n yeah.sometimes i feel yeah maybe im juz a usuless bum hanging arnd doin nth.i really dunno why my mom n sis n broinlaw hv such a useless son brother brotherinlaw like me.i really dunno whr t head nw.my mind is really really in a whirl be it fr my family or fr financial.i really dunno wd t do n i feel fuckin useless.haiz haiz wad t do i cant really depend on ppl nw.
so yeah nw i really dunno wd t do nw.dunno wen wil all these problems ever end.wil it end fast or wd.haiz.sian1/2.
seeing a few of my frens retain or havin another chance t retake really makes me envy n scared.i envy them bcuz they can retake bt i cant.i cant even retain!so wad can i do?im really afraid i dont do well n let my mom down i dun tink she can take it maybe she wuld hav a heart attack or wd.omg im really at a lost nw.i stil hv t wait til dec den i noe my results its quite a long n tiring time.hopefully ill make it t sec5 nt i dunno whr i wil end up man.
den it comes t my heart.th person tht i like.i really really do like her alot.i dunno why do i stil like her after all these while i really dunno.nw i dun even hav t proper guts t face her n talk.hahah my god.i dun even dare t ask her cuz th standards of me n her are quite far.n its quite stupid thinking of it cuz its nt really possible between both of us.so yeah im at a lost.maybe ill take some time den yeah maybe forget abt her.
ohwells i shall stop here n write another time
ciaoboats!
Wednesday, October 25, 2006 @10:25 PM
hellos hellos=))
hellos all tht is reading my blog.hahah today is quite a fine day.business at my mom's stall was relatively better than usual.hopes tis continues i rather be tired bt as long as theres business anythin is worth it.ok so today was th usual routine bt today got alot of things t carry at th market la.i was like carrying more than 20kilos per hand.well well nw i really now hw much my mum hav t do everyday.den afternoon got a few tabao here and there den walk here walk there lor.
ohwells was quite a tiring day.den i lepark lepark til evening den phaaaap suddenly heavy rain lol.after tht my mom n i expected nt much business den it turned out t be better than usual!hahah very very good!
hahah den few days bak had a talk wif a fren which i did nt contacted fr a long time.hahah good t noe tht tht fren of mine is stil doin well.well well tis fren was th person tht i liked alot at a point of time.ohwells hahah wadever.as long tht fren is doin fren is doin well is okay.
hellos hellos im back wif a brand new rap.ok i dunno wd im typing.ohwells im tryin t start anew tryin find jobs.soot nia.work hard den ENJOY N PARTAY HARD!!!
wah sian stil hav t wait til dec den n lvls results come bak.DAMN FUCKIN SCARED i retain la.sian1/2sian1/2.wah sian la hw sia.oh wells
Monday, October 23, 2006 @11:27 PM
HIHI!!!
alrites man suckas.yeah im bak on posting.wah shiok tmr public holiday so tht means DONT NEED T WORK=))hahah alrites today is th same usual routine wake up go market wif my mom,go stall cut vegetables cleanup blah blah blah.den in th noon i wen t town fr a few games of dota.den after tht wen bak t th stall t help out den blah blah.
ok i dunno wd i typing lol.
ok lets go t my family.guess wad my FATHER came home. i wanted t giv him hell bt my mum told me nt t.i dun understand why is she holding me bak.maybe my mother juz cant bear t see him like tht or wd la.so yeah he came bak he attempted t talk t me bt i daoed him n walked away.didnt wan t say much cuz if i were t start talking i wuld scold him.so yeah today he followed us t th stall n market.as usual he didnt actually help much at th market n juz walked t th hawker centre n relax.after tht he wen t th stall calculated some bills n he wen inside th stall n read newspaper.even wen it was lunch time he oso did tht so i opened my mouth n asked him t get up of his little comfort zone n asked him t help.business wasnt as good as last wk,maybe its bcuz of th long wkends.
hopefully business improves on wed cuz tmr we nt opening.
oh wells i oso dunno wd t write oredy so i shall stop here.
-bye
Saturday, October 21, 2006 @11:33 PM
HELLOS ALL FINALLY IM POSTING AGAIN!!
woah finally i hv th time t blog.past few wks hav been quite happening.
ok lets start wif wad happened in my family.finally it came t th last straw wif my father n his family.its fuckin full of shit man.he walking out on th family juz like tht n all th stuff he has been doin th past few years.hmmph i oso dunno wd t say man.if i were t type it all out it wuld take me a year.hahah.pratically i gave his sisters n brothers which is pratically my my aunts n uncles th scolding of their of life.they keep pampering my father n keep encouraging him t drink.den he comes wif his retardedness of his neck.sometimes i feel tht hes juz a bum n i feel sad havin a father like him.talked t him one nite n gave him a dressing down.pratically i listed out on all th points on why is he a failure as a father,as a husband of my mom,as a so-called head of the family n as a person.i dun understand why is he so fucking selfish man.cant stand him anymore.really really cant stand him. oh wells anws nw i got father oso like dun hav like tht.so i rather nt hv one like him.so i juz told him t nvr come bak again.
so bcuz hes no longer part of th family i decided t help out at my moms stall.business has been so-so.sometimes my mom make my blood boil,she herself makes th wrong orders or pack wrongly n she wants t get pissed off n start scolding me.bt i noe shes facing alot of stress n i as her son hav t help cuz if u dun help her out who else can?so pratically th whole wk hv been waking up early like 6plus n following my mom t th market.sometimes i feel why my mom scolds me wen i wan t scold some ppl at th coffeeshop fr her.although there are many customers wif fuckface bt i stil tolertate them as they are th ones tht provide money for my family.business hv been better each day sinced i helped up.maybe its juz my presence at th stall.lol.its been quite a tiring wk at th stall n nw i noe hw tiring isit working everyday.actually i worked quite a few times b4 n i oredy understand it.ohwells tis is my own family so i'd do anything t help out.
so ive been tryin hard t find a part time job somewhere.asked my sis t help me source out jobs n stuff so yalah.den nw lets talk abt myself.hahah
ermmm been thinking alot abt dota n stuff so on thurs or wed i went town t play like 2 hrs n rushed back t th stall n help out.so lepark lepark nw i got nth t do liao so i shall blog another time cuz i dunno really wad t write cuz got alot of things t type.
alrites see yall another time suckas!=))
