Sunday, September 03, 2006 @4:34 AM
Wah 430 oredy...
wondering why th hell am i stil awake at tis time man.hahah juz played wif cam standard game n i won her:))i randomed n i got undead n she gt orc.den i tot at first i was gg t lose as last time i lost t her bt she juz told me it was terence th one playin th last time so i was like wtf la-_-hahah den after tht we wanted t dota bt as usual i internet pasa siao so tio dc again lol.oh wells wad t do tonite internet connection really sucks la. wah nw damn sian la i wonder hw am i supposed t wake up on monday if i carry on tis kind of sleeping habits lol.nw im stil on th phone wif ff leon n cam.none of us are tokin la,we are like pre-occupied wif our own stuff.hahah why making so much sense tokin on th phone.rather sian nw i can finally play some DODUHH bt cam had t update her blog.ohwells.
nw i feeling rather fuckin tired n moody.damn sian la i dunno wad am i gg t do tmr man.nw theres alot of things running through my mind nw.shud i concentrate 100% on studies or split up abit of my concentrationt other affairs.i stil cant find th reason why i like her so much,is there something wrong wif me or wad.is she really tht attractive or isit juz me?i really do not noe man.its seems tht shes quite impossible t get la.shud i juz move on or shud i try t go for her although th chance are very slim?actually i tink i wuld do tht bt th soonest wuld oso be after my n's or wad la so for nw im juz gna lepark siao abt tis matter.for nw i think i gg t do some kong revision siao for tmr.gotta do well for my n's man.although nw i stil like in th lepark mood bt i wil try my very best:)hahah sayin very easy bt doin it is fuckin hard la.
nw once again ive come t my own self reflection time again.nw actually im thinkin tht whether am i doin th so-called right things n walkin t so-called right path.tis is something tht i can nvr really seem t solve.maybe im juz nt matured enough t analyse things out for myself.very fuckin sian.haiz wad t do man tis is juz life.sometimes in life u wuld face some pressure bt tis so-called pressure helps u growup n mature.some ppl need t lose something or someone impt den they wuld so called mature frm there.many ppl hav many kinds of pressure.in different stages of life ppl face different kind of pressures.wen we are in primary skul we feel pressure cause of failing exams.in secondary skul wif hav like bgf problems,family is oso coming in,wen we are teenagers we are considered young adults n wil one day take over of taking care of th family.wen we are adults we wil feel pressure as we are afraid tht we cant find jobs.n we hav children we are gna feel pressure cuz we are afraid tht we cant afford t bring them up or wadsoever.some ppl dun nd t face tis kind of pressure due t their living environments n hw were they brought up.they hav their parents' company t fall back on or some inheritance of somesort.is tis juz a unfair world or wad.oh wells.
its juz every1 wil hav their own so called good points n bad points.bt sometimes its hard t spot th person's good point.for me as an example many ppl see me as a unreasonable money-faced bastard,which is in fact true abt th money-faced part i mean who th fuck wont like money.so many ppl juz judge me by my appearance n stuff like tht.wen i get harsh t ppl do they really noe wads happening?th ans wuld be no cuz they are juz fuckers hu juz simply sit down there wna watch show onli n plus they onli side th one they think who is right which most of th time they make th wrong judgement.i really cant understand why ppl judge by th appearance n nt judge by how well u noe th person n other stuff.its sometimes really dissapointing tht ure frens dun trust u.its ok if normal frens dun trust.bt wad if ure so called close fren oso does tht t u hw wuld u feel?tis kind of feelings really sucks big time n i wuldnt want t go through it again cuz ive oredy experienced it once oredy.for nw i onli can say i truly judge ppl by who they are.actually in th first place im in no position t judge cuz im oso nt perfect.see sometimes in life wad u say its contradicting which is fucking sian.
ok im getting rather tired oredy nw its oredy 5am n im stil awake i tink i cant tank anymore n im gna sleep soon so i shall blog later on:)
