Saturday, September 02, 2006 @2:43 AM
TEACHER'S DAY!!!
ok firstly today gt no skul cuz i wanted t go skul den i checked th timetable dun hav timetable for friday so i called keith for th timetable.den he tel me no skul.den after tht i called greg t check den he oso say no skul.so hahah can sleep more.
last nite there were some annoying motherfuckers kajiao me.wonder do they hav a fucking life or wad la.chee bye kajiao they all fucking jia pa kar eng liao.den i jio them them come down they all bo ji den come out wif all sorta shit.rather fucked up.i found n out who they are n gg t acsi t go soot them.
after tht i cool down den i played standard game wif terence.so fair match eh?i ask him giv me 5mins headstart den in th end he stil fuckin whooped me.oh wells guess i hav t train up my standard game.den played for quite a while den we tok cock on th phone den we play 10 heroes siege.fucking fun la.terence chose a fuckin gay hero la he.farmer kong like siao like tht fuckin too imbar oredy.ohwells den we play til 4 plus den i culdnt tank n slept for 5 mins den they kept callin me so i woke up n cal bak.den cam wanted t play wif me standard game bt i was too lazy t get off my bed:p so nvr play.den suddenly ff leon n dom th fishball was in th call then we talked til five plus den was supposed t meet leon den take 518 t down bt end up tak boleh tank den i went t slp lol.
after tht i woke up at arnd 12plus.tot i wuld slp til one plus.amazingly i felt energetic n i chionged outta hse t go meet casey n greg.wen i slept i had weird dreams abt her.do i really like her tht much or wad.i gotta get on cuz its nt really possible for two of us t get together n plus she doesnt hav feelings for me.ohwells. hahah wad to do man.in a sense im juz too fucking obsessed oredy la.gotta concentrate on studies now though.n always on th way home or in a bus i dont noe why bt somehow she wuld juz pop up into my mind isit juz something wrong wif me or wad.hahah guess i gotta do something abt tis man.always on th bus or mrt i wuld think of many things like my family n my very close frens.wuld i lose them one day or wad.i dunnoe man so many frens i oredy had lost.its juz very very sad.
oh wells lets continue first of wad i did today ermmm den wen reached greg's hse he was tokin on th phone den casey was bathing.fuck man greg whole day tok on th phone la.ahaha i tink he gt a new target oredy.heheh.den after abit of delay here n there we decided t take a cab t orchard.wen we reached casey's father shop there was hell loads of ppl there la.i tink they were joy low's frens.n today was teacher's day hahah.n gregs mum bought some brownies for him t present t joy.den i felt damn paiseh as i didnt bring anything den greg "included" my name in there.den after tht madam asked whether we had made it ourselves n greg said yes.den she was like "did u buy it frm auntie rose" den greg was like oh my god.hahah den after tht i decided we could make a cheesecake once again for her.juz like wad we did for casey's mum bdae.
after presenting th brownies we went down t dome t hav a game of DODUHH.hahah.den we played 3v2 against ff leon n kw n we were winning til kw's comp gt pasa.sorta had a small argument wif him cuz he took damn long t join den i hurried him t join n he replied me "my comp restarted,remember?" in quite a sarcastic tone.den i replied "ure comp restart den cant get new one a cb."den kw was like "WAD TH FUCK LA."i didnt noe wad t say cuz in a way i was laughing though.jkjk.den we played 2v2 n we gt owned la.sian1/2after tht i played wif casey 1v1 -shar n we got qop.i noe casey gave me chance so anyhow fuck arnd although i won th game la.its juz my second time playin qop though.hahah.den after tht we had a in house match,me kw alvin leonli n junyat against jj casey leonlim justin n cam.it was a tough match cuz at th start we kept getting pawned.i tot we were gg t lose or wad bt surprisingly after 1 clash th game turn n we won th game.after tht casey n i went t meridien t smoke n greg tagged along.greg was like tokin on th phone for mother long la.i tink he gg t get new gf liao.hahah.
after tht we walked arnd den talk cock sing song n went bak up t dome t say bye.after tht we went t th shop n we madam was stil there.n she surprisingly asked me whether i wanted t go archering den i was huh?!hahah lol.so after tht we went t th shop behind t makan some nasi lemak.it was rather good lol.hahah.den after tht we went into greg's father car there was MASSIVE jam n we wasted like almost 1/2hr in orchard la.oh wells.den finally at 11 i reached serangoon interchange.n 81 came almost immediately la so i boarded it.it was rather crowded though. den as usual on th bus i wuld reflect upon my life.
i cant really seem t find th reason why i really like her so much bt anws hahahah.i tink theres a major pasa wif my head.she quite a desirable girl so yalah.i oso dunno la even if i wna stead i wuld rather wait til i tone up abit n wif more qualification den go ask la.hahah.
actually sometimes long bus rides make u reflect on wad u had done.its quite a good time t sit down n think abt wad ure gna do n stuff as wen ure on th bus normally there wuldnt be anybody t so called disturb u wen ure deep into thoughts.currently im listening t th song 'hurt' by johnny cash. its makes quite alot of sense in life cuz seriously every1 i noe is slowly juz gg away in th end.n these past few months hav marked how much i really matured or rather hw much i didnt mature.its really hard for me t think nw.sometimes i ask myself what hav i become?i noe some of my close frens tink n noe i changed alot since last time.nowadays i juz cant seem t be as cheery as last time.in a sense i get t tension n pissed off too fast.i cant understand why i cant tahan like hw i used t last time.i really hav changed alot.in fact i changed for th fucking worse which is rather fucking dissapointing.i noe whr im heading in life bt i cant seem t meet th goals i set t myself.i cant seem t hav th so-called determination t study which is rather fucked up.n's are theoractically 2 days away n i havent even touched t chinese tb which is rather fucked up.i dunno whether can i make it for n's anot.it seems so hard t achieve sometimes bt i onli gt myself t blame for tis stage im in nw cuz i do nt fuckin put in enough effort in m studies.i sometimes juz feel like whacking myself cuz i seriously let down my family too many times oredy.i feel fucking bad for tht.everytime wen i fail my sis is always th one encouraging me there.i really wanna thank my sis cuz i really owe her big time bt i really dunno hw.i cant even use my results as a present cuz i noe it wuld be fucked up.i seriously let my sister down umpteen times.so many times she trusted wad i said bt i failed t achieve it.my sis may seem strong on th outside bt on th inside she pretty weak.i as th so called only man in tis family cant let her get hurt.shes gone thru fucking alot of shit since young.so i vow tht wil fucking work hard n provide for her wen i grow up n nvr let her suffer again.it oso goes th same for my mother i noe tht shes made many sacrifices for th family n i hope i can giv her a good life wen i grow up n find a good job.
sometimes wen i tink abt my father he brings me both good n bad memories.there are many times he did stupid things n hurt my mother.i really want t whack him t waken him up bt hes my father so i cant really seem t do it.i remember was i was young my father is th most understanding one in th family.bt these few years hes changed alot since he had his neck problems.nw hes like a retard.sometimes i really blame my uncles for letting my father drink so fucking much.hes spent so much money on beer which is fucking uneccessary.i dunno wads happening t my family nw.i really hope tht i could start again a million miles away.i really hope tht all things problems can juz vanish like tht cuz its seriously damn fucked up.
my grandpa is oso another one tht i really love alot.he treats me damn fucking well.everytime durin th hols b4 i even wake up he wuld oredy buy food for me or prepare food for me.i really hope tht he doesnt die cuz i cant bear t see him die like tht.my grandpa although may seem healthy or wad t other ppl bt he gets sick very often.i really really pity my grandpa as he has 3 useless sons n another son commited suicide.i really really wna provide a good environment for my family t live in cuz they've fucking suffered far too fucking much oredy n i cant bear t see them get hurt again.
for nw th best i can do for them is provide kong results n thts th so-called best payback i can giv them.although i wont dare say i wuld ace my n's bt i tink i wuld make it t o's.studies are a headache til nw i cant seem t get my maths done properly.maths seems fucking hard t me cuz im lazy t practice.n th best thing is math is one of th most impt subs t help me go t poly or wad.tis really sucks sometimes i really hope i can turn bak in time n start again.haiz.
n nw for my frens. quite a few i regarded as a brother bt once again they hav gone astray.some ppl run away frm home cuz their home gt many problems bt they all in a sense hav a perfect family bt they dunno hw t treasure it i dun get th reason why.must something bad happen b4 they realise tht their family is impt t them?i dunno man.nw all of them hav gone different paths in life n i wish them all th best even though some are going t wrong way.maybe i juz cant help every1.so many times i spend longer time outside tryin t tok t a fren n go home tio kan bt i dun mind as long as i can help him bt den again its juz a waste of time.so many times i toked on th phone bt stil it doesn really change anithing much.its true tht i cant help every1 bt stil i wuld wan t help any1 or every1 tht deserves help.some of them i think juz dun deserve help.gg arnd n tio taiji getting into stupid problems singing gang poems i mean wads th fucking point man.u wna be paikia make sure ure hokkien can speak la.some of em juz anyhow whack let ppl hear oso laugh onli.i dunno why tis kind of ppl juz cant seem t mature are they juz fucking too immature or juz tht i can accept wad are they doin.tis kind of ppl ai zor pai kia buay kao yi nang kar la.
wah damn sian nw i tink tht ive wrote enough for today.tmr i gna continue more.hahahah.nw i gna sleep so good nite all:))hahah
