Wednesday, September 27, 2006 @6:27 PM
FUCKED UP NITE
alrites alrites,ok lets start wad wif yesterday.i woke up early den wen t skul,while waiting fr my skul bus in didnt come!hahah cuz ive nt been sitting it n didnt giv bus uncle a call n he was pretty mad abt it.so yeah i took a cab t skul den slack slack.den after assembly i wen t went t get a early release n wen t dome t meet cam n ter.they were playin dota n were losing BUT BUT after i cam they were winning=))hahah so yeah played n played den slacked n slacked den went t lido t watch movie wif zaad n th rest.we watched jontuckermustdie.it was quite a borin movie although it provided us a few laughs as th storyline was pretty much predictable.den after bak headed bak t dome den went t cut my hair den after tht slacked wif cam n ter den wen home.
wen i reached home i called ter fr standard game.den i was abt t go bathe den my parents started t quarell.tht was wen t fuckin sad part comes.my father was scolding my mum den after tht my sis n bro in law came in.den after tht my mom started pushing my father den my father started scolding anyohow den phaaap phaap my sister whacked my father.i could really do anithin much cuz i noe hw useless my father is nw.i tried t stop everything bt t no avail.i couldnt take it n broke down in tears.keep tryin t stop fights bt coulnt do anithin much.seeing my sis n mum scolding my father hurts me bt i noe they were right abt it.bt blood is always thicker than water.i was quite helpless as i couldnt do anithin fuckin thing.i was damn depressed.didnt noe wd t do.seeing my family tear apart.den after awhile i shouted at th whole family t stop n i had t stop my father frm hurting himself.its damn fuckin chaotic n its damn fuckin depressing.its onli abt 5 days t my n's n tis had t happen.i really dunno wtf th world is fuckin coming t man.its damn saddening seeing all these things happen.i really hv no one t turn t.tried callin ppl t talk bt no one picked up.n finally ter called.bt tht was pretty much after i cried th fuck outta myself.bt at least he was there fr me. ahhh i really dun noe wd t do abt my life man i really sucks nw.it seems tht day by day my family condition worsens.hw long more do i hav t wait fr a brighter side of life?i really dunno wd t do man n im damn tired nw fuckin tired.
SOME HELP PLS HELP ME N MY FAMILY!=((
oh wells i shall stop here.dun wna tok anymore abt tis matter.haiz
Friday, September 22, 2006 @10:50 PM
well hellos once again t all readin my blog.
ohwells today at dome we played n played,n i realised tht sidney dont really hv much coordination in standard game la.bt stil he's better than me in microing n he noes wd t build la.
ermmm nth much la after tis we slack n slack den i decided t go fr ff leon's bbq at jerm's hse.it was quite ok.amount of ppl there were juz nice.bt as usual drinks is always too little.
after awhile of my kong bbqing fr ppl,they wen t play blind mice.den me n jeric were there finding a way t keep th fire gg.after tht they all dipped in th pool n i couldnt as i didnt hv shorts of my size.so i waited n waited n finally after some ppl left there was one tht fitted me.so we played water wrestling.it was fuckin fun la.hahah.we pao each other like siao den fuckin hell oso kena pao bak.
after tht i slacked fr awhile den i went hm.wen i was abt t shake every1's hands justin didnt shake,den he was like drunk la den he stared at me den he was like"bloody pangseh JUZ GO AWAY LA"it was a lil bit in th cryin tone la.i tink today onli justin gt wasted.hahah.wen hm i tot wil tio kan bt nth much happened so yeah n yeah.
ok i oso dunno hw t continue oredy so yeah bb.
-briann'
@6:25 AM
Hellos suckas!
ok nw its 6 am n i am dome.decided t pon skul again.hahah we juz won 2 standard hahah song bo!anws quite sian la no money liao.damn fuckin fast la.
fuckin hell go fishin tht day sidney tht smart fuck had t release th fish we caught.threw 35 fuckin dollars into th motherfuckin drain.sian1/2.gt a lil tanned after fishing.damn sian nw no one playin 3v3 at.so we all nw juz slack jack siao.
ok i dunno wd t write oredy seeya suckas!
=))
Tuesday, September 19, 2006 @7:13 PM
SIAN 1/2
ok once again i didnt go skul today.terence called me at 6 plus n asked me whether i wanted t go dome.den i didnt even noe i overslept fr skul la so said ill cal him later.
i slept till 11 plus den woke up.my grandfather bought nasi lemak fr me so i makan.den arnd 1 plus i took a nap den ter called me.den he asked whr was i den i was like "im at home" den he said"ok goodnite"hahah.den i slept til 5 plus.damn long nvr sleep until so long oredy.
den nw i rather sian cuz nth t do at home.wah sian1/2 la.
ytd i found out one of my closest fren became a cb lang.tellin lanjiao stories t everyone.sayin ppl at dome had no life n stuff.if he had so much fuckin life he wuldnt even tot of gg t ymca.i hope hes fuckin readin tis shit.bloody pubor nang.tht cb kia tinks tht he can study n stuff sayin tht he "would" turn over a new leaf after he goes there.end up he fuckin screws up his life pon skul go out wif his so called new frens.i expected tis t come one day since he wen t ymca bt th least i culd expect was it t happen so fast.it seems like juz ytd he was stil my fren.fuckin disappointed in him didnt noe why he became like tis.SHAUN CHUA TZE YANG I HOPE URE FUCKIN READIN TIS!i dont noe wad caused tis fuckin change in him.i hope he really fuckup his eoys n retain n tht wil teach him a lesson.if he tinks his new cliques are better its ok bt he need'nt say all those lanjiao way n fuckin tell every1 different stories.ah fuck la he wan t like tht oso no one can help him la.hope somethin bad really happens t him n teach him a lesson la.he tinks piercin angkong all damn cool keep long hair oso cool den go ahead la.go t ymca juz cuz u wan piercin long hair dyed hair n nt cuz of ure studies WAKE UP LA CB DUN FUCKIN DECIEVE URESELF N LIVE IN DENIAL.keep tellin ppl ure gg t turn a over a new leaf den come out tis kind of fuckin stupid shit.TELL PPL URE GG T STUDY GO THERE PON SKUL WAD KIND OF FUCKIN NEW LEAF IS THT?!ah lanjiao la u wan go dere bcom a dua paikia or paikia wannabe den go la.cb kia.go t another skul cuz of outside appearance theres a bigger boundary,fuckin stupid la.
aiyah i oso dunno wd t say t tis kind of cb lang la.
ok i shall stop here cuz i dont wna spoil my mood or waste my fuckin time on such useless,juvenile childish stupid stubborn sonofabitch like him la.
-byebye shaun.
Saturday, September 16, 2006 @11:11 PM
my sister's bdayy'
hellos.havent been bloggin fr th past few days.past few days was quite happenin bt was too tired t blog abt it.
alrites last nite i came home very very late then i onli realised tht my card didnt hav money onli wen i boarded th bus.after tht i wen bak t dome n tried t borrow money,i didnt actually dare t cal any1 of my family cuz i was afraid they might scold me n giv me shitty lectures.den fr th past few hrs my broinlaw said tht he n th rest was tryin t contact me bt on my phone i didnt even receive one missed call at all.nvm after tht he asked me t take a cab home.wen i gt home i had a long talk wif him n sorted some things out.although im facing quite alot of pressure bt it cant be compared t wd th rest of my family is facin.sometimes im childish in my ways of thinkin n i hate myself fr tht.hopefully i can find a job n at least lighten a little of my family's monthly expenditure n burdens.
den after tht i wen t slp.i had many many wierd dreams.n most of th time my dreams come t reality.i hope it doesnt cuz is damn fuckin bad.fuck man isit bad or wd man.wah kan sian la.
wen i woke up my sister scolded me like fuck.ohwells gotta face th consequences fr wad i had done.after a while my broinlaw asked me t go out wif lunch wif my sis n mum.den i was like in a dilemma as i juz gt scolded n didnt actually hv th mood t go out or wd.bt in th end fr th sake of tis family i did.i didnt wna ruin my sister's bdae as my was ruined many many times n i dun wan it t happen t her as she is th one in th family tht cares th most fr me even though i always fuckup things n dissapoint her.aft tht we wen t ngee ann city t makan. we wen t some imperial something restaurant.th food there was fuckin gd la.after makanin we walked arnd n bought some snacks n den headed hm.
ok i shall stop here fr awhile later then i continue.
Thursday, September 14, 2006 @12:24 AM
Bad day or good day?
havent really blogged for th past few days.was quite tired n didnt want t.hahah.ermmm ok i shall start wif my day today.
was tokin t cam dom leon n ter on th phone.we were discussing wd time we shud go dome.so we talked n talked den i suddenly slept.i wanted t take a short nap bt end up i was late for skul so i decided nt t go.so i called leon lim n ask him t go town wif me.leon was tokin t ter n we were deciding wd time t meet.end up talk talk talk den phaaaaaaaaap.ter nvr come.he n cam wen t sleep so leon n i were alone in town arnd 9 plus.wen we reached town we went t makan breakfast,th new prata shop th bryani was horrible.they kept overnight chicken n den reheated n sell it again.i was sour bt i stil ate it cuz it was expensive.
after makanin we wen t dome t play some dota.den i was tokin t cheng he said he wuld come town soon after his "studies".tht was arnd 10plus.den leon n i played -wtf mode it was rather fun.we played til 12plus den zaad came so we played 1 more round den after tht we closed comp n wen t makan wif zaad.den FINALLY cheng came bt tht was arnd 1 plus.den we played n played den suddenly casey n th rest came.n i juz found out today was leonli's bdae so i wished him happy birthday.hahah.we played til 5 plus den we left for singapore idol.
fr 1/2hr we were deciding whether t take a cab or a bus den ter i tink due t lack of sleep was quite pissed off n he said take bus la.so we tagged along.den after durin t bus journey greg n i were listening t my ipod.n we sang songs n did stupid actions.it was quite funny.n finally we reached at arnd 630.den we had t walk quite a long way in t cadlecott hill.we took like 10-15mins.finally we reached.all of us were perspiring la.den we waited den finally we gt our tickets t go in BUT we had t wait like 1hr plus til we could get our seats.
wen we were queueing up there was tis guy tht kept starin at cam.hes quite scary la.den cam was oso quite scared den ter almost wanted t whack tht guy la.den end up we tok cock n everythin wen t normal.wen we were seated th show was abt t start it was quite rowdy.there were many many muds arnd.shouting anyhow.quite frustrated abt tht.den we th performance started there were many kanchiong spiders fuckin stand up n try t attract attention.fuck low-life shitheads.after tht wen it came t th performance th ppl seatin behind leon were fuckin noisy la.kept whistling n shout.we were quite pissed bt didnt do anithin abt it as we didnt wna stoop t their lvl.after th last song we wen out n den i met xw n we went home together.
we walked t th petrol kiosk outside as xw n th rest wanted t buy drinks.after tht we decided t tk a cab home.
wen i reached home i heard my sister talkin quite loudly.so i wen into her room n find out wad was gg on.i saw my mum cryin,my heart fuckin sank.she was very depressed,she kept vomiting n sayin silly things as she had drunk beer.my sister n broinlaw was there tryin t console her n all i could do is juz stand there n see her cry.th onli things i culd do was t pour water n make some oats fr her.i really feel tht im quite a useless child.all i can do is provide trouble t th family.im really damn helpless.seeing my mum who has supported tis family fr so fuckin long n finally today she cant take it n had a breakdown.i really hate my father as he is a fuckin useless guy,he didnt even noe my mum had a breakdown n he wen t slp.i dunno wd has become of him as th so-called head of th family can juz do tis.all these yrs it has been my mum n sis whos been pullin tis family together whether thru good times or bad.although my family dont really understand me bt i really do love them.i juz cant do anithin t show it t them.haiz im really damn useless.
wd am i supposed t do nw
can some1 there help me out?
i really do nt noe.
hope my family can pull thru
n make our lives start anew.
Saturday, September 09, 2006 @1:32 AM
Phaaaaaamp.Friday oredy.
time has passed so fast.its oredy friday.okays i shall start wif wd happen yesterday as i forgot t update my blog.
yesterday was quite sian day as i wen t town too early n there was hardly anyone.i wen t greg's father shop t giv joy her late teachers day present.hahah she was quite shocked or rather surprised as she wuldnt expect casey,greg n i t make th cake.after tht i wen t dome n i saw cheng n darius.dey were gg t play 2v1 against vinz n i ask whether i culd play as i was damn bored.den it was cheng n me vs darius n vinz.cheng was sniper,i was bane,darius was loa n vinz was spectre.at th start i fuckup vinz like siao keep denyin n harassing him.den finally he cant tank den they tried t gang me bt failed.n th game was quite one-sided so cheng n i won.as later there were more ppl who came so we played 4v4.it was me cheng darius terence vs cam,casey,chang n one more i forgot.we gt whooped quite badly.ohwells. den after tht zaad they all had a new draft n their team of 5 was alex,kw,marcus,zaad n leng.alex once again has beaten his record,treant lvl 11 refresher up.wah tht match was pretty one sided as th other team was made up of casey ken jeremy leo leonli.after th match cam wanted me t go momo wif them bt i wasnt really interested so i decided t let it pass.bt she said she didnt mind fishin after clubbin n she wuld tel me wads th plans after she clubbed.n plus i was quite tired so i asked ffleon whether he wanted t go home den after alex n leonli came so we took th same cab.
WHATS DAO MAN?!as we onli had 20dollars combined together so i asked leonlim t ask th driver whether 20 wuld be enough.den phaap. leon kena daoed.den after every few mins leonlim wuld ask n get daoed.th driver was oredy scoring a dominating daoing streak t leon.den i decided t end th streak n i asked.th cab driver immediately replied.leonlim was like wtf la.its damn funny la we laughed through th whole cab ride.n finally 20 wasnt enough so i had t try search here n there n finally found enough money t pay fr th cab.so after alighting th cab i dragged myself home.
sometimes wen i enter my hse i wonder whether isit really a home t me.i dun really feel any warmth in it.although my broinlaw keeps sayin tht i shud come home early cause my mom wuld ask him everynite whr am i.bt sometimes do dey understand th actual reason for why am i coming home late.i really dunno la.wen i reached home i wen t bathe,makan den come online tok cock sing song wif ppl.
den after tht i was tokin t dom,tokin abt wd am i gg t do n stuff.den after tht dom called ter as he wanted t tok wif more ppl.den we realised tht cam was clubbin while terence was at home playin standard game.hahah it sounds weird bt maybe its juz everybody needs a time of their own.den we talked n talked den Phaaaaaaaaaaap cam reached home.so we were like discussing abt whether t go t east coast park t fish den discuss discuss den end up nvr go.hahah.den i told them t meet me at dome. den after tht i persuaded ffleon t come out. n he did den we makan at his hse n took 518 t town.was quite a irritating trip as leon wuld as usual do stupid hand gestures while listenin t songs.its quite stupid lol.finally after a long ride we reached town at 815 am.maybe was juz arnd 1 hr plus late.den we played against bnet ppl n we owned la.n i played enigma fr th first time today n i farmed nt bad.lvl10 5.7k.i oso dunno why enigma i so on la.hahah den after we played den ter cam n kw couldnt tank n slept in dome.den they onli left leon lim n me there t chor bo lan.finally after awhile i felt drowsy n t keep myself awake i played against bnet ppl 1v1.first match was qop vs pudge.i tot i was gg t lose la as tis is th like wd third time im playin qop.so im stil quite stiff wif th hotkeys of th hero.den phaap like tht almost th 3/4 of th day gone oredy.den we played a in hse match,it was me cheng darius leonlim n jason vs cam ter sidney justin n leonli.i tot we were gg t lose la bt end up we won.we took down all three rax n den phaamp game ended.den after tht i spectate leonli playin -wtf.i watch n watch n out of a sudden i fell asleep.it happened quite a few times den i decided t go home.so i took 518 home,i hoped i culd get a seatbt phaaaaaaaaaaaaap no seats at all.i was fuckin tired so i wanted t sit down den phaaaap sian1/2 no chair.i stood in th bus n was sleepin wen i was standin la den finally wen in reached temasek poly i had a seat.hahah.today is th 6th day im tankin nt sleepin.so i tink today shall be th day i shall rest.
ok i shall stop here i tnk i cant tank anymore lol.
-cya
Wednesday, September 06, 2006 @12:24 AM
startin of my n's,endin of my life.
monday marks th first day of my n's.rather sian1/2. ok was supposed t meet xw n jia bt i was late by 2 trains so nvr.long journeys sumtimes really make me hav a headache.den wen i reached skul i saw every1 discussing abt th letter writin format.after a while we wen in t th exam hall.wen th exam started i saw th chinese paper it was relatively easy t write.bt thts onli for th compo n letter writin.after th first paper we had a small break den onli th snacks stall was open so we bought food frm them.they rip ppl off their money.den wen th second paper came it was quite hard.im really scared tht i cant make it.
after th papers i wen t fareast wif jia they all.i pierced my ear too.hahah.after tht we went our seperate ways.den i wen dome n had a game of dota.me casey zaad n cheng vs eddie marcus ken n leng.it was a fair match.we gt owned in th start n i tot we were gg t lose.bt clash after clash we were winnin n by luck we won tht game.den i went t slack jack arnd n den wen home.
wen i reached hm i felt tht i was quite tired bt i didnt wna slp.so i decided t tank.den it was a bad nite cuz had some arguments here n there wif ppl.den i tanked bt i forgot t update my blog.
after tht i forgot abt th time n i was late for skul today. den i rushed outta hse n luckily i made it on time for th listenin compre.listen compre was relatively easy den after tht i wen t dome t play dota.me elvin n ivan vs battle.net ppl.dey were noobs la.hahah.den wen we were abt t leave dome zaad alex marcus cheng ken n kc appeared.den after tht wen we were in barker all of us were doin last minute revision.den after tht ss paper started.luckily th topics i studied came out.was quite relieved bt it was relatively hard.coulnt really concentrate on th paper.had other things gg on in my mind.den i wen dome n spectated a match,leng ken marcus zaad n kw VS leontay jason pornchai elvin n jonong.it was a damn siao match la.zaad techies was fuckin good. den after tht me casey greg jason cam ter leonlim sidney were supposed t go fishin bt in th end every1 backed out so didnt go.den i went home late n my bro in law talked t me.it seems tht nobody in th family understands me anymore.
ive been thinkin very long n hard these few months.i really drifted away frm my family.i find it hard t communicate wif any1 in th family nw.no one seems t noe hw i feel.feelin damn fucked up really feel im like a burden t my family.these few yrs i really hav been a useless child.seein my family suffer n in such a condition bt i can juz sit thr n do nothin.wd my bro in law said made sense bt i stil dont agree.it seems really really hard nw.very hard.i really dunnoe wd has caused t change in me.really feel damn dissapointed in myself.nw its a very hard time for my family n i can juz sit there n nt only nt help bt create more problems.im really damn tired oredy.damn fuckin tired.nw i hope tht i can juz join my grandma n uncle in th other world.dun really find a meanin in life.im losing more frens n theres really alot happenin nw.i dunno why i can help ppl solve their problems bt i cant juz solve mine.im a very useless guy.im gna do my best for my family for th nxt 1 month n den juz hope fr th best.i juz wna lighten my family's burden so i hope i can juz die somehow.i dunno hw t help in any way nw.wad can i really do nw?im really at a loss now.bt all these things wuld come t a end soon.
i hurt myself today,t see if i stil feel
i focus on th pain th only thing thts real.
what hav i become?
everyone i noe goes away in th end.
i will let u down i wil make u hurt.
these few days ive been think alot abt her.be it durin exams,on th bus or wadever.i really like her alot.bt nw she oredy has a stead n theres really nth much i can do bt juz watch her frm afar.n anws i dun see her nowadays.hopefully she wuld hav a fruitful relationship wif her current stead.though i may nt hav her bt i juz wna see her happy.so i really really wish her all th best wif my most sincere heart.
conversation,hesitations in my mind
i'm not crazy
i'm sure i ain't done nothin wrong
i'm juz waitin
cause i heard this feelin won't last that long.
Some day, when I'm awfully low
When the world is cold
i wil feel a glow juz thinkin of you
with each word your tenderness grows
tearing my fears apart
and tht laugh tht wrinkles ure nose
it touches my foolish heart
my heart wil nvr be ur home
as i layed sleepin
i dreamt i held u in my arms
wen i awoke
i was mistaken
n i hung my head n sighed.
alrite i shall end here for nw.gg t reflect upon my life nw.
briann'
Monday, September 04, 2006 @5:17 AM
thts me.hahahah.look quite beng=(
HI ITS 5 oredy!
ahahahahah so fast its five in th morn oredy.been tokin t cam til like four plus den she tak boleh tank den she go sleep.after tht talked t terence for awhile.dunno whether i shud go soot th acsi ppl anot.fuckin senseless la.i really wna turn over a new leaf n try t be a good boy frm now onwards.bt it seems really really hard t do tht.oh wells nw im damn bored n im like gg t leave for skul in 30mins time or wad.nw im listening t shi jie mo ri by jay chou.th song makes some sense bt oso doesnt.ok i dunno wad im writing.find tis song quite nice.
i really do like u alot bt wad can i do abt my feelings
sometimes i juz sit there and think abt it.
its quite dumb liking u bt i juz seem t control my feelings
what can i really do t make u love me?
hahahah sometimes i juz fantasize too much
maybe im juz nt suited for u
bt ill juz watch u frm afar
every hoping t get more glances on u
tis seems senseless bt still.
hahah.
in th morning
although th sun shines thru my window
i always feel alone n cold.
i sit down n think abt th feelings
bt it juz cant seem t disappear
my heart for u is true
let no one take tht frm u
i wish i was special
so fuckin special.
i give my heart t you
cause nothin can compare t tis world t u
theres only tis much i can take
and i just got t let it go
who knows i might feel better yeah.
if i dont try and dont hope
and in a funny way im calm
cuz its nt in my control
n im juz gna let it fly.
alrites i shall stop writing here cuz im gna go bathe for th second time n go skul oredy.cya peeps.
@12:16 AM
12AM oredy.
ok nw its twelve plus oredy.nw im stil awake in 7hrs plus its my first n lvl papers oredy.rather sian la.lucky i got study abit for chinese.dunnoe wad time i shud report for th paper la.wah sian1/2.
ok i shall tok abt my 2 half of th day .ok after i woke up four plus do my blog. den i went out t watch tv.wah tv no show t watch la fuckin sian1/2.den after tht my mum called asked whether i wanted t makan den i asked my sis n all.den they said ok.den after tht i wanted t do my blog bt i was too lazy den i layed downed on my bed n tot. ahhh rather sian la i tink tht i shud giv up oredy la.i dunnoe man im damn confused nw la.oh wells after tht i dosed off.was tired. den i woke up 7plus wen my mum came home.den she bought alot of good food la satay bee hoon,chicken rice malay rice n alot of other stuff.its damn good la.after tht i watched some movie called princess d.was quite retarded la.bt it was quite sweet though.bt stil quite merepe.
after tht dom called me den i was like tryin t connect t my internet for 1hr plus la.fuckin sian la.den finally got on thts why im updating my blog nw.hahah.den after tht wen i logged-on there was quite a few ppl tht tok t me la.was quite bored so talked t them lor.hahah rather fun though.nw im stil tokin t dom while updating my blog although im half heartedly tokin t dom n half-heartedly blogging. bt stil ah anyhow whack onli la.
ermmmm nw i quite confused wif a few things la.damn sian la no chance oredy oh wells.sian1/2 bt stil able t tank la.in a way i ask b4 bt phaaaamp tak boleh la.ermmm nw i damn confused la i really really DO stil like her alot bt it seems theres nth much i can do abt it.ahahah oh wells man.in a way i dunno hw t put it t her n phaaaamp th best thing is she oredy gt a stead.wtf man brian wad are u thinking abt.i really dunno wad t do la my mind is in a fuckin whirl now la.i cant actually believe i liked her so much n for so long la.i feel like shit nw man.damn bloody sian la.ahhhh actually i oso dunnoe why i feel a great pain bt actually i shudnt though bt i stil wish her n her stead all th best though.i oso dunnoe i really fucking feel damn fuckin shitty now man.AHHHHHHHHHH.bt anw ANWS hopefully her relationship tis time wuld last long n i believe tht it wuld last long la so yeah la.th guy is a nice guy so i hope tht he wuld take care of her.anws i wish tis couple th best in their future la.:))hahah.
bt come t think of it we dun really suit each other la so i oso dunno why i oso hav tis kind of feelings oso i dunno why i feel so sad or like hav tht kind of weird feeling in my heart la?do i really like her tht much til th stage like tht.in a sense i really really yearn n hope t be wif her bt i noe its nt possible.i noe in a sense im living in denial bt stil like her. i dunno why la.tis feelings actually sucks shit man n i dunnoe hw t react nw.i really hav alot of thoughts gg thru my mind nw.ALOT of thoughts man.for nw i think i onli can watch her frm afar wif her bf.although tht feelings sucks bt stil can tank man.hahah oh wells life sucks shit man.today exams oredy i tink im juz gna die la wif so many thoughts gg through my mind nw.i feel like smoking nw bt i dun tink i wuld.ahhh i tink ill juz try t tank tis matter.okays nw i dun really noe wad im gna say cuz my mind is filled wif many many broken thoughts.
alrite i shall stop here for nw n continue later. so seeya suckas!hahah
Sunday, September 03, 2006 @4:39 PM
HELLOS:))
hellos t all.hahah.its been 12hrs since my last posting.anws i slep at arnd 7 plus tis morn.was tokin t ff leon onli cuz cam was supposedly "blog-surfing" n she went t surf until she slept on th bed.den i told leon t go watch '15' and we both laughed like fuckk cuz th movie is rather hilarious.den we oso discussed abt dota -wtf mode n wad heroes where good for it n wad were nt good.rather sian though bt fuckit.after a while i really couldnt tank n hung up n went t sleep.once again im havin weird dreams both abt my family n my frens.i dunno why isit like tht.are dreams hints of wads gna happen or wad?if my dreams are gg t appear in reality they are nt really good dreams den.sometimes i dream of wads gna happen in th future n it really comes thru.is tht good or bad?i really dunnoe man.
anws after a series of weird dreams fuckin hell many ppl called me den i kap their calls as i was very tired.den finally i picked up one call n it was DOMINIC.hahah tht fucker was like quite annoying la cuz i dun really like ppl disturbing me wen im sleeping n juz nice kena him so it was hell la.den i told him i wuld call him later we im more awake.few minutes later i was wide awake as i culd nt sleep anymore.
so i went t wash up.n there was food on th table,mee siam and nasi lemak.i at th mee siam n th nasi lemak i left it for later.th mee siam was rather good man.dunno hw they make th sauce/gravy i tink both my mum n sis noes hw t make it so im gna ask them.oredy learnt t cook alotta things frm them.hahah.actually sometimes i dunnoe why girls nowadays cant really seem t cook.both my sis n mom can cook good food.bt i cant understand why other girls or rather women cant cook.maybe nowadays most women are too pampered n are juz too lazy t learn anithin abt cooking or wad everything juz tabao frm outside food stalls.outside food stalls are unhealthy as most of them uses MSG which is bad for health.oh wells ppl must hav something t make their food good so cant really blame them.bt there are really stores tht dun use any MSG n their food is very good.actually th original taste is usually th best taste.sometimes ppl juz wna come out wif more flavours so their products of wad could be sold or they wna compete wif ppl selling th same kind of food as them.
competition is good and coming out wif new things are oso good,bt if u come out wif something new u most make sure its good.sometimes its juz nt onli abt th food bt oso th ppl who serve u.some stall owners think tht th food they sell is th best in th world n giv u a fucked up attitude while serving u.they hav like th 'u dun like my attitude den dun eat here la' thinking which i tink is wrong.if u want ure customers t come bak its nt onli abt th food bt its oso abt th service.i cant understand services nowadays are dropping at quite a rapid rate.nowadays ppl serve u 'properly' if u are rich or wad.u hardly find stall owners tht treat everyone th same n provide very good service.oh wells maybe tis is juz th harsh reality of tis world.hahah.
ok i dunno why i drifted so far away frm th topic of myself.hahah wtf man.ok anws after makaning i wen t turn on my comp.n as usual ares hav t take a long time t load up.sian1/2 after tht i went online n cam toked t me.den she said brb.den i was like huh?!hahah.after tht she was very kind t say sorry as she admitted she dosed off ytd. hahah wtf man.den i wanted t play dota she said tht she was blog-surfin n tokin t her old fren.i was wondering tht was she tokin cock or wad cuz last nite she said go blog surfin bt end up she went t slp.ohwells. den after tht i went t check my mails n went t frenster.walau nowadays frenster having more problems than ever man.its getting from bad t worse since they added more n more things.i took like more than 15 mins t try t go in.i try go other website there were nt any problems. oh wells den after frenstering for awhile i went t update my blog.hahah den write til here lor.
Here I lay thinking of you
Making my heart beat
My palms sweat
You are more than I ever hoped for
Your voice
Your humor
The scent of a rose
The voice of a goddess
The mind of a genius
and skin of a child
You make me laugh
You make me smile
For you
I will go the extra mile
LET ME DIE
Are we at war tonight
Will there be angels whispering into midnight
Don't wake when lightning strikes
My heart for you is true
Let no one take that from you
Time is running tight
Can't change from wrong to right
So I'll close my eyes and dream a little
Just like how we used to be baby
Its time to say farewell now
No need to cry of feelings
Oh, It's alright
I'll end the end of lies
Heaven grant me one last wish I beg you
Let me say these words before I go
I will love you till the end of time
Every breath of mine I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace my sweetheart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can change my world from black to white
So I'll close my eyes and dream a little more
Are we at war tonight
Will there be angels whispering to midnight
Don't wake when lightning strikes
Heaven grant me one last wish I beg you
Let me say these words before I go
I will love you till the end of time
Every breath of mine I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace my sweetheart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can give me strength to fight
Till the sky is burning it's the end of time
Look ahead tomorrow long and winding road
Keep the faith of mine don't let it go
You're the only reason that i'm growing cold
What would I do without you
I will love you till the end of time
Every breath of mine I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace my sweetheart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can make my world so bright
Life no longer ends here with you in my heart
In my heart
@4:34 AM
Wah 430 oredy...
wondering why th hell am i stil awake at tis time man.hahah juz played wif cam standard game n i won her:))i randomed n i got undead n she gt orc.den i tot at first i was gg t lose as last time i lost t her bt she juz told me it was terence th one playin th last time so i was like wtf la-_-hahah den after tht we wanted t dota bt as usual i internet pasa siao so tio dc again lol.oh wells wad t do tonite internet connection really sucks la. wah nw damn sian la i wonder hw am i supposed t wake up on monday if i carry on tis kind of sleeping habits lol.nw im stil on th phone wif ff leon n cam.none of us are tokin la,we are like pre-occupied wif our own stuff.hahah why making so much sense tokin on th phone.rather sian nw i can finally play some DODUHH bt cam had t update her blog.ohwells.
nw i feeling rather fuckin tired n moody.damn sian la i dunno wad am i gg t do tmr man.nw theres alot of things running through my mind nw.shud i concentrate 100% on studies or split up abit of my concentrationt other affairs.i stil cant find th reason why i like her so much,is there something wrong wif me or wad.is she really tht attractive or isit juz me?i really do not noe man.its seems tht shes quite impossible t get la.shud i juz move on or shud i try t go for her although th chance are very slim?actually i tink i wuld do tht bt th soonest wuld oso be after my n's or wad la so for nw im juz gna lepark siao abt tis matter.for nw i think i gg t do some kong revision siao for tmr.gotta do well for my n's man.although nw i stil like in th lepark mood bt i wil try my very best:)hahah sayin very easy bt doin it is fuckin hard la.
nw once again ive come t my own self reflection time again.nw actually im thinkin tht whether am i doin th so-called right things n walkin t so-called right path.tis is something tht i can nvr really seem t solve.maybe im juz nt matured enough t analyse things out for myself.very fuckin sian.haiz wad t do man tis is juz life.sometimes in life u wuld face some pressure bt tis so-called pressure helps u growup n mature.some ppl need t lose something or someone impt den they wuld so called mature frm there.many ppl hav many kinds of pressure.in different stages of life ppl face different kind of pressures.wen we are in primary skul we feel pressure cause of failing exams.in secondary skul wif hav like bgf problems,family is oso coming in,wen we are teenagers we are considered young adults n wil one day take over of taking care of th family.wen we are adults we wil feel pressure as we are afraid tht we cant find jobs.n we hav children we are gna feel pressure cuz we are afraid tht we cant afford t bring them up or wadsoever.some ppl dun nd t face tis kind of pressure due t their living environments n hw were they brought up.they hav their parents' company t fall back on or some inheritance of somesort.is tis juz a unfair world or wad.oh wells.
its juz every1 wil hav their own so called good points n bad points.bt sometimes its hard t spot th person's good point.for me as an example many ppl see me as a unreasonable money-faced bastard,which is in fact true abt th money-faced part i mean who th fuck wont like money.so many ppl juz judge me by my appearance n stuff like tht.wen i get harsh t ppl do they really noe wads happening?th ans wuld be no cuz they are juz fuckers hu juz simply sit down there wna watch show onli n plus they onli side th one they think who is right which most of th time they make th wrong judgement.i really cant understand why ppl judge by th appearance n nt judge by how well u noe th person n other stuff.its sometimes really dissapointing tht ure frens dun trust u.its ok if normal frens dun trust.bt wad if ure so called close fren oso does tht t u hw wuld u feel?tis kind of feelings really sucks big time n i wuldnt want t go through it again cuz ive oredy experienced it once oredy.for nw i onli can say i truly judge ppl by who they are.actually in th first place im in no position t judge cuz im oso nt perfect.see sometimes in life wad u say its contradicting which is fucking sian.
ok im getting rather tired oredy nw its oredy 5am n im stil awake i tink i cant tank anymore n im gna sleep soon so i shall blog later on:)
@1:08 AM
ITS WEEKEND!!!
ok finally its a saturday.sorta a time t relax although i havent been gg t skul for almost th whole wk bt yeah.ok i noe i posting tis on a sunday morning bt in a way stil im writing for sat.tday i tanked til four plus five cuz i was writing ytd's entry.i woke up arnd 12 plus.den casey called t confirm whether he nd greg were coming t my hse t make cheesecake for joy low.his call woke me up n i was like half awake den he said like he wil come arnd 8 plus den i said okay.den after tht arnd 2 plus i called them wen i was more awake.n he said tht hes "on th way" oredy.bt end up he reached my hse arnd 430.why so early.hahah ok den after tht we leparked in my hse for arnd 1 and a half hrs n as usual wen greg reached my hse he was tokin on th phone.hahah tht fucker i tink surely gt new gf oredy la.hahah.anws for tht 1 1/2 greg was in th living room talking n casey&i were in my room d/l songs.
6plus we finally went down t shop n save t buy th ingredients for th cheese cake.although th sour cream was missing,my sis said tht we stil can make th cake without th sour cream juz tht th quantity wuld be lesser.den after tht wen we were walking t shopnsave at th cc there was a fucking bunch of muds there.den at first they didnt dare t look at us den after we walked by th whole fucking grp stared at us.i mean wads th use of tht man u got th balls u look us into th face la.anws wen we were at shopnsave there were alot of small children thus it was rather hard t get arnd as parents nowadays cant really seem t control their own child properly.ohwells. den after tht we went t queue at th outside counter as th queue was supposedly shorter.BUT th casher was motherfucking slow man.n we took longer than ppl queueing inside la.wtf la.nvm lol.
after tht we went t smoke downstairs my hse n we were talking like ah bengs n we were kajiaoing greg n amazingly he was stil on th phone.after th delay here n there we finally went upstairs t make th cake.den i asked casey t pound th biscuits for th base of th cake.n greg was STILL tokin on th phone.den i heated th butter n accidetally overheated th first batch.bt nvr its ok.after tht i went t start mix th cream cheese wif sugar.den after th mix was "easier" t mix greg finally came in t help.den after tht we put th cake into my microwave-cum-oven t bake it.den casey n i went into my room n greg wen t th toilet.everytime without fail he would take a dump at my hse.-_- after tht greg wen t my couch n took a nap while casey n i were inside my room watching "15". th movie was rather funny wonder hw they talk so smoothly la.hahah.anws wen th movie was abt t end greg came into my room n was amazed wif th movie n wanted t watch den we watched for awhile den greg's mom called him n he had t go.den they did their last sticks n greg bathed den both of them zhaoboat frm my hse.i went down wif them t wait for their bus.n we were tokin abt wad happened ytd n we were laughing like siao la. oh wells.
after tht i went bak upstairs n fuckin hell almost 10 ppl were tokin t me on msn la.i was like why suddenly i become so popular ah?hahah.after tht finally cam's fren pointed out tht my blogskin had t be changed.i really wanted elmo la bt den there were no other nice elmo skins ohwells.elmo's really damn cute la.sian1/2.den i searched for a while n finally decided on putting southpark as my skin.den after tht cam helped me do everything n so yalah.hahah finally my blog can let ppl see wad i post.BUT BUT BUT fkin hell th tagboard was stil fuckin merepe la.den cam intro my t some website t make my own tagboard n finally my tagboared was fixed. ok den i was talkin t dom,leon n cam on th phone.rather sian bt rather funny hearing leonlim n dom quarelling wif each other.til nw we are stil on th phone lol n they are stil arguing.hahah.den cam n i are like 'away' as we are updating our entry.hahah poor leon down there nth t do n dom tht fucker pangseh him go watch tv.
today was another day of reflecting on my life.actually i tot for a very long n hard time of wad had i done,been doin n wd am i gg t do abt my future.i realise tht wad had been done had been done n nw is a time for me t tink wad am i gg t do t make ammendments or change wad has been happening.ive decided for my studies tht im nt gg t go town for arnd th nxt 1 1/2 month n do massive revision.i really wan t ace my n's n prove t my parents tht i can really make it n im nt a so-called ah beng or wadsoever.bt somehow i dunno hw am i gg t live up t th target i set for myself.i really gotta prove myself n th rest wrong.for nw i tink im gg t concentrate more on my studies rather than mudane affairs or gaming.although i noe its hard for me t acc tht bt stil im gg t try t change though.its rather sian cuz i stil hav her in my mind.isit juz infatuation or i really like her tht much?ahhhh sian la i dunno wad t do la.i really do like her bt i noe its nt possible.ohwells.life sucks:P
although its quite a pity tht i really do nt hav th determination t do stuff as many elders or isit olders hav told me tht im very talented.although i dun really believe in tht bt stil i wan t tried my very best in everything i do frm nw onwards.
nw for my frens i regard dearly,i really think tht i cant really help anymore cuz im oso human n most of th times i cant even help myself.i dunno why i can help ppl n giv them advice bt i cant seem t do tht for myself.its quite headache la.i really dunno hw t help them anymore cuz wad i say nowadays doesnt seem t get into their head.im really mentally tired of wad had been happening over th past few months n it feels like shit juz t even metion abt it.ohwells.
sian1/2.n's are juz tmr n i stil havent even touch my mother tongue tb and my ss tb.omg la although for prelims i passed my ss 27/50 n my chinese 60/100 bt i tink its nt good enough cuz i need th score for these two subs as i need them t pull me through nxt yr.i dunno whether my poa can make it anot cuz my results for it has been up n down.geog has gone for th worse i tink cuz of th change of class format.th fucking 4eA n 4eB format is juz purely fucking stupid cuz i cant wen i was stil in 4e1 there was stil a little motivation t study there bt wen it changed t 4eB i totally had no motivation t study.im nt sayin th ppl sucks or wad.th company is good for fun bt nt good for studying.theres so many fucking jokers in th class n it seems quite stupid nt participating in th fun.ok actually its stupid t join in la bt i stil do it la.hahah.
i wonder tmr wen i go bak t skul wuld they mention abt th caning casse anot.damn sian cuz i really dun wna get caned again if i were t get caned again it wuld be th third time of th yr oredy.i find it tht elton tht motherfucking son of a bitch cant even lie for himself n fucking busting th both of us t th skul.i find th elton's a motherfucker tht dunnoe hw t think n thinks hes smart n stuff which in fact no its juz cuz of money money money n money tht makes him more superior than ppl.elton thinks tht his popularity is high in skul bt dunnoe in fact tht many ppl dislike him.although i noe my attitude in skul many ppl dun really like it bt i tink ppl wuld rather choose my over him as a fren.ohwells hopefully th skul forgets abt my caning case cuz i really dun wna get caned again.its nt really abt th pain bt actually its abt th pressure tht it cause t my parents.their business hav nt been doin well for th past few wks n if i were t let them noe tht im gg t get caned i tink they might juz kick me outta hse or juz turn crazy n do stupid stuff.so i really hope tht th skul wuld forget abt th case completely.
oh wells i shall stop here for th moment cuz i cant really think of things t write oredy.
Saturday, September 02, 2006 @2:43 AM
TEACHER'S DAY!!!
ok firstly today gt no skul cuz i wanted t go skul den i checked th timetable dun hav timetable for friday so i called keith for th timetable.den he tel me no skul.den after tht i called greg t check den he oso say no skul.so hahah can sleep more.
last nite there were some annoying motherfuckers kajiao me.wonder do they hav a fucking life or wad la.chee bye kajiao they all fucking jia pa kar eng liao.den i jio them them come down they all bo ji den come out wif all sorta shit.rather fucked up.i found n out who they are n gg t acsi t go soot them.
after tht i cool down den i played standard game wif terence.so fair match eh?i ask him giv me 5mins headstart den in th end he stil fuckin whooped me.oh wells guess i hav t train up my standard game.den played for quite a while den we tok cock on th phone den we play 10 heroes siege.fucking fun la.terence chose a fuckin gay hero la he.farmer kong like siao like tht fuckin too imbar oredy.ohwells den we play til 4 plus den i culdnt tank n slept for 5 mins den they kept callin me so i woke up n cal bak.den cam wanted t play wif me standard game bt i was too lazy t get off my bed:p so nvr play.den suddenly ff leon n dom th fishball was in th call then we talked til five plus den was supposed t meet leon den take 518 t down bt end up tak boleh tank den i went t slp lol.
after tht i woke up at arnd 12plus.tot i wuld slp til one plus.amazingly i felt energetic n i chionged outta hse t go meet casey n greg.wen i slept i had weird dreams abt her.do i really like her tht much or wad.i gotta get on cuz its nt really possible for two of us t get together n plus she doesnt hav feelings for me.ohwells. hahah wad to do man.in a sense im juz too fucking obsessed oredy la.gotta concentrate on studies now though.n always on th way home or in a bus i dont noe why bt somehow she wuld juz pop up into my mind isit juz something wrong wif me or wad.hahah guess i gotta do something abt tis man.always on th bus or mrt i wuld think of many things like my family n my very close frens.wuld i lose them one day or wad.i dunnoe man so many frens i oredy had lost.its juz very very sad.
oh wells lets continue first of wad i did today ermmm den wen reached greg's hse he was tokin on th phone den casey was bathing.fuck man greg whole day tok on th phone la.ahaha i tink he gt a new target oredy.heheh.den after abit of delay here n there we decided t take a cab t orchard.wen we reached casey's father shop there was hell loads of ppl there la.i tink they were joy low's frens.n today was teacher's day hahah.n gregs mum bought some brownies for him t present t joy.den i felt damn paiseh as i didnt bring anything den greg "included" my name in there.den after tht madam asked whether we had made it ourselves n greg said yes.den she was like "did u buy it frm auntie rose" den greg was like oh my god.hahah den after tht i decided we could make a cheesecake once again for her.juz like wad we did for casey's mum bdae.
after presenting th brownies we went down t dome t hav a game of DODUHH.hahah.den we played 3v2 against ff leon n kw n we were winning til kw's comp gt pasa.sorta had a small argument wif him cuz he took damn long t join den i hurried him t join n he replied me "my comp restarted,remember?" in quite a sarcastic tone.den i replied "ure comp restart den cant get new one a cb."den kw was like "WAD TH FUCK LA."i didnt noe wad t say cuz in a way i was laughing though.jkjk.den we played 2v2 n we gt owned la.sian1/2after tht i played wif casey 1v1 -shar n we got qop.i noe casey gave me chance so anyhow fuck arnd although i won th game la.its juz my second time playin qop though.hahah.den after tht we had a in house match,me kw alvin leonli n junyat against jj casey leonlim justin n cam.it was a tough match cuz at th start we kept getting pawned.i tot we were gg t lose or wad bt surprisingly after 1 clash th game turn n we won th game.after tht casey n i went t meridien t smoke n greg tagged along.greg was like tokin on th phone for mother long la.i tink he gg t get new gf liao.hahah.
after tht we walked arnd den talk cock sing song n went bak up t dome t say bye.after tht we went t th shop n we madam was stil there.n she surprisingly asked me whether i wanted t go archering den i was huh?!hahah lol.so after tht we went t th shop behind t makan some nasi lemak.it was rather good lol.hahah.den after tht we went into greg's father car there was MASSIVE jam n we wasted like almost 1/2hr in orchard la.oh wells.den finally at 11 i reached serangoon interchange.n 81 came almost immediately la so i boarded it.it was rather crowded though. den as usual on th bus i wuld reflect upon my life.
i cant really seem t find th reason why i really like her so much bt anws hahahah.i tink theres a major pasa wif my head.she quite a desirable girl so yalah.i oso dunno la even if i wna stead i wuld rather wait til i tone up abit n wif more qualification den go ask la.hahah.
actually sometimes long bus rides make u reflect on wad u had done.its quite a good time t sit down n think abt wad ure gna do n stuff as wen ure on th bus normally there wuldnt be anybody t so called disturb u wen ure deep into thoughts.currently im listening t th song 'hurt' by johnny cash. its makes quite alot of sense in life cuz seriously every1 i noe is slowly juz gg away in th end.n these past few months hav marked how much i really matured or rather hw much i didnt mature.its really hard for me t think nw.sometimes i ask myself what hav i become?i noe some of my close frens tink n noe i changed alot since last time.nowadays i juz cant seem t be as cheery as last time.in a sense i get t tension n pissed off too fast.i cant understand why i cant tahan like hw i used t last time.i really hav changed alot.in fact i changed for th fucking worse which is rather fucking dissapointing.i noe whr im heading in life bt i cant seem t meet th goals i set t myself.i cant seem t hav th so-called determination t study which is rather fucked up.n's are theoractically 2 days away n i havent even touched t chinese tb which is rather fucked up.i dunno whether can i make it for n's anot.it seems so hard t achieve sometimes bt i onli gt myself t blame for tis stage im in nw cuz i do nt fuckin put in enough effort in m studies.i sometimes juz feel like whacking myself cuz i seriously let down my family too many times oredy.i feel fucking bad for tht.everytime wen i fail my sis is always th one encouraging me there.i really wanna thank my sis cuz i really owe her big time bt i really dunno hw.i cant even use my results as a present cuz i noe it wuld be fucked up.i seriously let my sister down umpteen times.so many times she trusted wad i said bt i failed t achieve it.my sis may seem strong on th outside bt on th inside she pretty weak.i as th so called only man in tis family cant let her get hurt.shes gone thru fucking alot of shit since young.so i vow tht wil fucking work hard n provide for her wen i grow up n nvr let her suffer again.it oso goes th same for my mother i noe tht shes made many sacrifices for th family n i hope i can giv her a good life wen i grow up n find a good job.
sometimes wen i tink abt my father he brings me both good n bad memories.there are many times he did stupid things n hurt my mother.i really want t whack him t waken him up bt hes my father so i cant really seem t do it.i remember was i was young my father is th most understanding one in th family.bt these few years hes changed alot since he had his neck problems.nw hes like a retard.sometimes i really blame my uncles for letting my father drink so fucking much.hes spent so much money on beer which is fucking uneccessary.i dunno wads happening t my family nw.i really hope tht i could start again a million miles away.i really hope tht all things problems can juz vanish like tht cuz its seriously damn fucked up.
my grandpa is oso another one tht i really love alot.he treats me damn fucking well.everytime durin th hols b4 i even wake up he wuld oredy buy food for me or prepare food for me.i really hope tht he doesnt die cuz i cant bear t see him die like tht.my grandpa although may seem healthy or wad t other ppl bt he gets sick very often.i really really pity my grandpa as he has 3 useless sons n another son commited suicide.i really really wna provide a good environment for my family t live in cuz they've fucking suffered far too fucking much oredy n i cant bear t see them get hurt again.
for nw th best i can do for them is provide kong results n thts th so-called best payback i can giv them.although i wont dare say i wuld ace my n's bt i tink i wuld make it t o's.studies are a headache til nw i cant seem t get my maths done properly.maths seems fucking hard t me cuz im lazy t practice.n th best thing is math is one of th most impt subs t help me go t poly or wad.tis really sucks sometimes i really hope i can turn bak in time n start again.haiz.
n nw for my frens. quite a few i regarded as a brother bt once again they hav gone astray.some ppl run away frm home cuz their home gt many problems bt they all in a sense hav a perfect family bt they dunno hw t treasure it i dun get th reason why.must something bad happen b4 they realise tht their family is impt t them?i dunno man.nw all of them hav gone different paths in life n i wish them all th best even though some are going t wrong way.maybe i juz cant help every1.so many times i spend longer time outside tryin t tok t a fren n go home tio kan bt i dun mind as long as i can help him bt den again its juz a waste of time.so many times i toked on th phone bt stil it doesn really change anithing much.its true tht i cant help every1 bt stil i wuld wan t help any1 or every1 tht deserves help.some of them i think juz dun deserve help.gg arnd n tio taiji getting into stupid problems singing gang poems i mean wads th fucking point man.u wna be paikia make sure ure hokkien can speak la.some of em juz anyhow whack let ppl hear oso laugh onli.i dunno why tis kind of ppl juz cant seem t mature are they juz fucking too immature or juz tht i can accept wad are they doin.tis kind of ppl ai zor pai kia buay kao yi nang kar la.
wah damn sian nw i tink tht ive wrote enough for today.tmr i gna continue more.hahahah.nw i gna sleep so good nite all:))hahah
thts me.hahahah.look quite beng=(