Thursday, August 31, 2006 @7:48 PM
wah today fucking overslept again.fuck man n's juz nxt wk i stil can like tht dunno wtf la.sian la feel tht i let my family down by doin all tis shit la. bt stil i wil fucking go t skul tmr.
ahhh today as usual i tanked til 3 plus den wanted t take a short nap den phaaaaamp oversleep.sian1/2 la.den i woke up at 1 la.weather today damn nice t sleep cuz its was raining n it was cold. i woke up den i tried t do up my blog bt was unsucceessful cuz i dunno hw t do shit.ahhh sian.den plus cam's comp gt pasa so cant help me do
den after tht i logged on msn n started chatting wif azim den i played wif him yahoo pool was rather fun though cuz i in a way owned him.
today i sat down n tot abt wad am i doin in my life n wad hav done n nt done.really feel damn fucking bad t my family cuz in a way i giv more attention t my frens than them.in a sense i believe tht frens wuld go away in th end.cuz i had many dissapointments in many.so many fucking times i tried t help them bt t no avail.they do nt change bt instead change for th worse.isit my fault tht i didnt try hard enough or wad.really feel damn helpless wen i see a close fren of mine juz waste his life away juz like tht.its juz nt fucking worth it la.so many of them hav a bright future ahead of them bt juz waste it away like tht.its juz a fucking fucking big pity. so many of them hav let alot of ppl down many times although many ppl hav toked t them. isit juz them or wad.n 1 particular person i fuckin helped so many times bt time n time again he has fuckin let me down.i dun expect any payback or wad wen i help him n tok t him over th phone so many fucking hrs.bt th least i could expect is him makin th statement "ure nt even my father or elder so why so i listen t u". if i didnt treat him like a fucking younger brother i wuldnt hav wasted my fucking time t tok t him these past few months.sometimes i get pissed at myself of why i cant do anithin n juz see my frens waste their life away juz like tht.
hav i really done th right things or hav i nt done th right things.these feelings really really make me fucking helpless n how t say ermmm useless oso.seeing all my frens juz wif a snap of th finger juz change like tht its really really saddening.i really dunnoe why they choose tis path in life bt i hope they wil wake up n get on wif life n start caring abt their future.they nw are juz stray cats tht dunnoe whr they are heading n stuff tis is fucking pointless i feel.i really hope someday something wuld happen t them positively and make them think th correct path n carry on properly.
nw abt myself i feel tht th past 3 yrs of my life ive juz been fuking wasting it away by juz playin n playin n nt concentrating in my studies.i really hope tht i can turn bak in time n start again.cuz if i had worked hard enough i believe i wuld be in express n nt in normal acad.im nt sayin normal acad is bad or wad bt its really a pity tht i juz waste my life juz like tht.i cant seem t really get why i cant concentrate durin lessons n stuff isit cuz im juz too used t tis kind of lifestyle or wad?tis is juz very very headache.tis few yrs oso hav marked hw much i drifted away frm my parents cuz i cant really seem t communicate wif them properly anymore cuz they juz dun listen t me n my reasons behind things i do.i noe ive changed alot t them from a young innocent boy t a teenager hu is a ah beng n spout vulgarities anyhow.im really sorry dad n mum for letting u down time and again.
tis few yrs had been a tough time for my family as we are facing financial difficulties n alot of other stuff.sometimes wen i hav really bastard uncles i cant do anything bt juz let them hurt my family.i cant bear t see my mother cry everytime wen my uncle or father does something stupid. i really feel like whacking them bt i cant seem t do tht as tht wuld juz add more unneccesary pressure on her. all these things are really a headache t me n i hope one day i can juz delete it juz like a computer does
bt ohwells its juz life.every1 has t go through certain stages n wuld mature n tink wisely frm there.some ppl wont face tis kind of pressure some wil n some might even face more pressure than tis.rich ppl sometimes are juz too fucking snobbish n tink money can buy everything.tis i tink is fucking totally wrong cuz even though u may hav all th money in th world if ure character is nt good how many true frens would u hav?n i dun understand why some ppl can juz anyhow tio taiji anyhow.its juz fucking immature n its juz dragging ure so-called brothers down n juz run away n nt face th problem.is tis th so-called brotherhood or wad i dun understand til nw theres alot of statements or rather opinions tht can be made here i dunnoe hw wuld i react if i was caught in tht kind of situation wuld i stil be frens wif them or wad.in a sense there isnt anymore so called "brotherhood" or yi qi. nowadays if u hav money ppl are ure frens if u dun hav they juz shun away frm u.is tis juz pure reality or wad.tis world in fact is fucking harsh.sometimes its juz hard t acc why tis or tht happens.ahhh its a fucking headache n i hope i could juz sleep n rest forever.im very very tired physically n mentally of wad had been happening t me n my frens. im really really tired
i hope tht i can juz really juz sleep n nt wake up forever sometime juz tis world gives alot of lanjiao taiji.its very very tiring very tiring.
Wednesday, August 30, 2006 @10:48 PM
ok today is officially th first day tht my blog is proper n nice.hahaha tanks t cam:)) ok today as usual i woke up on time den i tot again whether i shud attend school anot. den end up i was too tired n couldnt tank so i went bak t slp.den after tht my sis at 6plus woke me up t go for skul den i said i was too tired so she ask me go bak t sleep.
arnd 11plus 12 my bro in law called me n asked whether my sis was still at home i was rather angry at tht time as i was stil slping n wanted t slp more.after tht i woke up n washed up. den i realised my grandfather bought for me breakfast.i really really wna tank my grandfather for taking care of me all these yrs bt i dunno hw t. th best i can do is t giv him money wen he hav no money t buy tobacco or wen hes hungry.
after i ate i went t stone n watch tv.den i decided t do up my blog so i went t my sis room n used her com as her com's internet speed n all was more stable.den after tht blogger.com had major problems as shit came out n said i cant view th page. i was rather pissed den juz nice cam tok t me online so i approached her for help n she help me do up my blog.(tanks cam!)after tht i was tokin t cam n terence on th phone since 3 plus until five plus.we talked abt dota n standard game n alot of other stuff.
arnd 540 i got off th phone n went t take a bath as i had t go t chijmes t meet my bro in law n sis for dinner.i was supposed t reach city hall by 630 bt i was late by 10mins n go annumed la.wen i reached there i didnt expect lauda t be there t join us for dinner. so den we went t chijmes t makan. wen walking in chijmes there was a lot of kinds of shops tht sell food la.bt we went t some japanese charcoal restaurant.th food there was extremely nice la bt it was also extremely ex.
after dinner we decided t go home n so we took 518 together. there wasnt much space at th bak of th bus so i sat infront alone.i was very tired so i decided t take a short nap.den after a while i fucking dropped my ipod.my fucking heart pain like fuck like tht la.oh wells:p
den arnd 10plus i reached home.didnt really noe wad t do whether i shud sneak out t meet cam n th rest anot.nw i stil dunnoe whr i wna go.ahah
@2:13 PM
tday after i woke up th second time cuz my bro in law called me n woke me up.was sorta pissed off as i wanted t slp more.after i woke up i went t wash up n makan th food tht my grandfather bought for me.th food wasnt really good th chwee kueh was fucking oily la.eat oredy feel like vomiting la.ahh wad t do. den after makan i called kc t ask whr he was gg n once again greg oso didnt go skul.hahahah
@2:10 PM
ytd forgot t continue writing as internet pasa liao liao.wah today once again i woke up on time for skul bt was deciding whether i shud go anot. den end up cant tank so went bak to sleep.ahah
n's juz nxt wk i dunnoe why am i still doin all these things.haiz maybe i shud really wake up n start real hardcore studyin.
Tuesday, August 29, 2006 @11:39 PM
ok today i woke up at 5am. was wondering whether i shuld go skul anot. i tot for an hr den decided nt t go n anws i was late even if i had gone.haahah so i slept until 12 plus den decided t cal casey n ask whr he was gg.den i found out tht greg oso nvr go skul so i went t meet them at their hse den went town. wen i reached greg's hse he was tokin on th phone n took damn long t get off la. den sumore he had t bathe so we delayed n delayed. den we went far east t meet jia n th rest t walk walk.den wen we reached far east den all of them decided t play dota so we went t meridien. i actually wanted t pierce my ear bt end up every1 chiong for bus so didnt:p
wen we reached meridien n wanted t play vs had no fuckin electricity so we stoned there for like an hr den sheng decided t eat so we went t th foodcourt.after they all finished makaning we went smoke at th staircase.after smoking gt some random guy asked greg if we had smoked there anot den after greg said no.we didnt even noe greg talked t tht guy cuz we were too engrossed wif th fifa game on th psp.after all th delaying we FINALLY went t dome.
@11:37 PM
rather sian nw.juz created tis blog.took like fucking almost an hr cuz i keep getting dced.wtf la.
bt stil blogging is rather fun lol. hahah ok i dunnoe wad t write oredy.
